Love v. Money

volunteering is the shit. working for a cause that could help improve the future is the shit... kiiiiiiiinda wish i did this more. but i dont. i cant say that i dont have the time because i do. i just dont do it.

lets be honest we all have time to do this and that tit for tat. but we dont. because sometimes we're all just a bunch of selfish aholes that cant help but worry about OUR problems and how much OUR lives suck. "FML" as we all like to say.

our lives could be worse. We should be so grateful that we do not suffer from diseases and poverty like other countries have to on a regular basis. its the sad and unfortunate truth that we even think for a second that our lives are so full of misfortune when there are those out there who have been dealt with bad cards far worse than we could even fathom.

What is it that brought on this deep gratitude for the things I have? We can thank my obsession with celebrities. saw a link for twilight, obvs. i clicked. lead to me a youtube clip of the new PSA for "One" the anti-poverty group that was co founded by Bono. Had a mash up of some celebs discussing how our involvement in groups like these can change the future. Well done, marketing team. Youve inspired.

Check out the ad:

pretty girls....

... Thanks to the flow right now what up!

american thanksgiving weekend. for some thats the time of giving thanks, turkey eating in excessive portions, and possibly pumpkin pie two slices. for me, it means BLACK FRIDAY SHOPPING. im not a crazy shopper im actually in control when i see all the discount signs. so i did pretty good. i came home with four new pairs of shoes. four. WHY. i do this always. i buy all these shoes but i always wear the same damn ones. you know which ones. the pleather ankle booties i got from alyssa. the AE ones. the ones that are NOT water resistant. oh but i still wear them. i cant break from them. theyre to precious. call me a pack rat i dun currr!!!

this is what i observed over the weekend:
- americans love to free pour their alcohol. WE LOVE THIS. tip them well they will treat you well. PREACH.
- american boys have, dare i say it, more balls than canadian ones. they are ten times more forward when it comes to approaching girls. some have ZERO game. you know. like the ones that expect you to dance with them when they dance behind you - umm me dancing here was NOT an open invitation for you to pull me closer and then there are those who try to pretend that they just want some 'no touch dancing' and then they try pull you closer. umm you are now in my bubble; my personal space. it is now time for youuu to leave. but despite all the lines and the moves and the 'heyy baby's' that we hear, they dont quit. and i gotta give them props. because they hold their head up high and move on to the next drunkie thats walking around.
- american clubs have gooooooood music. or maybe it was just the ones that i went to. but they beats were hard and the transitions were smooth. aaaaaaaamen.
- their portions of food are LOVING. like wow. something i look forward to, no lie. the abundance of food on a plate is sharable. me likey. even in the food court. my cousin, sister, and I shared ONE plate of chinese food. ONE PLATE. mind you, i wasnt completely stuffed but it lasted from lunch to dins. so cant complain there!
.. there were other things i observed but sadly i didnt write them down. fail.

my niece, ava, is CUUUUUUUUUUTE. she has big eyes. like BIG ONES. and i love it. its like she sees into your soul, that young one. love her. love how shes so little. lovelove and more love.

10 minute trainer. starts tomorrow. SORRY NAT! been waaay busy. what with 6 day work week last week then the states this week. such little time. so much to do.

WOOOOT EDUMACATION. getting all my courses together. what is it that im taking? marketing communications. why didnt someone tell me id be good at that when i was in university? damnit all. its okay. figured it out. my fortune is really coming true! things are coming together slowly for me. thank goodness its about time i got my shit together.

i cant find my ipod. i CANT find my ipod. i may scream just a little. i havent used it in a couple of weeks. and now ive misplaced it. this makes me very sad. because i have new music to put into it. sadface indeed. how can you be a happy ipod without the emo sounds of rihanna and and oldschool DC3 (oh yes! i broke that out of the box today)

.. im craving chicken fingers.

b.u.d.d.y

.. give it a try.

i watched the new britney spears music video. very 80s. body suits, the mesh and the lace ensembles, the shadow dancing... you get the picture. oh. and poles. it would be britney without poles. thoughts? the 1-2-3 song is okay but the video is uncool. she reveals a lot of her back. she doesnt exactly have the nicest back. ohhhhhhhhhh britney. go back to your kids.

50hr work weeks make me go a little crazy. its all in the spirit of SALE. thats right, kids. if you didnt know about it before you are for sure hearing about it now. ARITZIA IS ON SALE. happy quarter of a century, my beloved workplace. i actually dont mind working all the time. gives me less time to do the silly things i used to do aka spend all my money on draaaaank. oh wait. i still kinda do that.

SOBER WEEKEND STARTS NOW. im determined. at least one weekend sans the juice. i dont know how well this will play out considering its the lovely sophia's bday. do you all remember sophias birthday last year? CUZ I SORT OF DO. "make it gooooooo!" "give me oneeeeee moreeeeeeee chaaaaaance" random limo bus riding, breaking the shit out of shines ladies bathroom, and im pretty sure bien broke zf's window.... you know how we do. oh, and how could i forget the moment when i didnt know who was driving my car. dont worry. it was christy. i just didnt know who she was at the time.

i watched the movie se7en last night. never watched it in full. ever. caught the last hour of it. dude. brad pitt was a hottie in the day. now hes all bearded and married with 3849384 adopted children from ethiopia or africa whateverthefuck. anyways, good movie. pretty morbid. LOVED the ending. am considering to watch it again. although that could be a waste of time seeing as i already know how it ends. meh. doesnt stop me from watching twilight religiously.

speaking of which, NEW MOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im watching it soon. with summer 09 crew. love them. love the original days of the hunt. love taylor lautner. ps did you watch his interview with jimmy fallon? so cute. love the motorbike race. i use the term motorbike loosely.

wale is my new lupe fiasco. everyone needs to know wale. hes part of of ROC for goodness sakes. oh jayZ, you really do have an empire state of mind.

i finished 90210 season 4. now what the heck am i gonna listen to before i go to bed!!!!!

now or never.

kpop is fucking annoying. but i couldnt stop watching it. its like those moments when you see a car accident - you cant help but look. in this case, i cant help but look at all the cheese. shit. korean pop music makes me laugh. no disrespect. im sure the filipinos have something similar. pfft im CONFIDENT that we do.

am currently feelin the punk and glam kind of looks these days. probably all the gossip girl ive been watching. the punk of little J with the dark make up and messed up hair followed by anything baggy but not oversized. its comfy. its sexy. its most def a look i cannot pull off but will most certainly try. and then we have the glam. this is SOO not me. i am not that girly. nor do i have the time to care about everything down to my matching chanel (hah! i wish!) but it is a cute look. a nice cocktail dress paired with some sort of heel that doesnt take anything away from the over all look. i need a winter look. hmms hmms hmms.. or i can just be me and wear my leggings. YES!!!

when did music start to suck? theres a song out there. that spells out BITCH. why? WHY?! that has no lyrical merit whatsoever. cmon diane warren! CMON!!!!!!

mya. brandy. monica: you know what im talking about. circa i wanna be down just one of dem days ghetto superstar. ohhhhhhhh man. takes me back. am currently listening to it all on youtube. do you remember those days? its kind of like the question, "when did you fall in love with hip hop?" (brown sugar). i remember when i watched mya's music video for its all about me and saying, WTF THATS THE GUY FROM DRU HILL! i remember listening to brandy's sittin up in my room on repeat because i actually thought that if i WAITED, he would come. i remember when space jam came on and heard monica's rendition of for you i will and wanted to sound juuust like her. yes. im crazy. and yes. i miss those days. a lot. wootwoot ps: this ones for angela hayan pak because if there was annnnnnnnyone who would jam with me to these artists, it was her!! awwwwwww <3

did anyone watch taylor swift on SNL? cuz i did. only a bit. enough to catch the monologue and FIRELIGHT aka her version of twilight but with frankenstein. shiiiet so funny. made my night for sure. i had to watch the monologue again because i didnt quite get it the first time (partially because i was drinking and talking over it). LOVED the call out to kanye, joe jonas, and my favorite.. taylor lautner. yesss!!! taylor and taylor wooot!!

speaking of twilight, breaking dawn is rumored to be filmed in vancouver! MY PRAYERS HAVE BEEN ANSWERED!! AAAAAAAAAAAMEN!! my heart dropped when i heard it was potentially being filmed in portland due to shitty bc taxes. but praise Allah!! am just waiting for the imdb link to show up.

russian roulette.

man oh man have i been itching to write! lifes been too busy. i dont know why though its not like i do a whole lot. all i do is work. and chill with the coolest people on the planet aka my homies. other than that, life is usually not as tiring. maybe because ive been stressing. went to the bcit info session and may i just say that, that was probably one of the most intimidating moments. well, not so much intimidating more like WOAH im a first year again. didnt know where i was. didnt know who to talk to. couldnt find my car. you know, the usual. long story short: i think i figured it out =)

how convenient that rhianna is doing an interview re: chris brown and the use of her as a human punching bag MOMENTS before her new album release. i love the media. yes. lets take this opportunity to discuss the importance of abuse and somehow add a shameless plug where she will say something in her interview along the lines of, " the lyrics in my new album convey everything ive endured these last nine months." dont get me wrong, i feel for this princess. abuse is uncool, kids. if you dont know.. now you know..

TAYLOR AND TAYLOR FOR LIFE. its real and its deep. go cougars! yayy jailbait! damn these two are so freaking cute. cute cute and cute. and OHSO publicized. new moons in three weeks. taycobs on the cover of numerous gossip mags. this is not a coincidence. this is sheer genious. i love the mechanics of it all. actors need publicity. magazines and online gossip forums need someone to talk about. they work hand in hand and i cant get enough of it. hehehe on another note: would YOU date younger? sometimes i wonder if i could see past the boundaries. age aint nothing but a number. hmm. if aliyah says its okay, then i guess i can agree.

i want to travel. i NEED to travel. especially if i plan to go back to school in the near future. ive said it numerous but now im for sure. where the hell am i going. parents just told me the eurotrip is pushed to octoberish 2010. i can live with that. im just itching to get away and see something new. what id do to see the ball drop (har har) in times square...

are you excited for the olympics to hit vancouver? less than 100 days, wheeeeee!! im super pumped. the city will be so alive. mind you, thats a reason why im not entirely thrilled. no parking. transit will be a bitch. line ups to anywhere will exceed the minimum wait time of 5mins... shit. but who cares! OLYMPIIIIIIICS!!! am currently contemplating a new olympic hoodie. which one do i want. i dont know. all i know is that its going to be PARKLIFE. eff you, hudson bay company, aritzia is where its at!! olympic gear makes me happy.

the only thing i like about the iphone is the application where if you bump each others phones together it automatically saves your contacts. cheap thrill. still pretty fascinating. htc forever though. NO BBM. and NO PING APPLICATION (is that what its called?)

peace. love. ecstasy.

jigga what? jigga who?

simply said.. jayZ was epic. so much energy in the way he performed. loved it. and pharrell didnt look to bad either. his style is my steelo. urbandictionary.com defines steelo as, "Slang for style; a playa's aura. Some get this definition confused with swagger. It can be your fashion but that's just part of the bigger picture. Let's just say, the devil didn't make you do it, it was your steelo."... just so we're all on the same page.

i worked six days this week. not that im going to really complain because i do love the extra money. but i must say.. that i am exhausted. a big part of it is probably because i dont sleep anymore. or well i do. at like 3am. and then i wake up early for work. early esque anyways. i dont really understand how people cant sleep in. its so mind boggling. i slept for 11 hours today. sleep deprivation finally hit me like a ton of bricks when i couldnt even eat my dinner without feeling delirious. how did i manage to run off 2hrs of sleep a day when i was in post secondary? oh right. i slept through class... oh university. i am truly amazed at the fact that i graduated.

IS IT TRUE: that twilight is done filming? and theyre apparently moving the filming to portland. portland of all places. what the deuce is THAT nonsense. do you know what this means? i will never meet rpattz. unless i take the hunt over to the states. its a difficult task. but im sure i can rise to the occasion. taylor lautner is love. he was in coquitlam centre earlier this week. i tweeted about it. (yes i tweet, suckas!) i was working. same mall. life sucks.

im watching 90210 season 4 now. theyre freshmen at college. and so the vicious love triangle of brenda kelly and dylan commences. i know how the story goes but i dont care.. team brenda all the way. sidenote: shannen doherty was apparently at the giants game this weekend? vraiment? i am fascinated by her. why? because she is first a foremost a diva. then actress. oh wait. dont the two come hand in hand? either way.. love her career. love her even more because shes a bitch.

which reminds me to ask: do YOUU know a brenda? a kelly? what about a steve? do tell. idk about everyone else but my sick teenage head relates the characters to people i know. in every social circle theres always the misunderstood bad boy (dylan mckay) and the popular princess who seems flawless on the outside but is most def a troubled young girl (kelly taylor).

daises are the friendliest flowers. so true. i watched youve got mail. you know, the other sleepless in seattle with tom hanks and meg ryan. i believed their connection. i believed their love. she forgave him for ruining her business. i guess that cute. stupid. but cute.

i think i'll take a walk tomorrow. if weather permits.

never say never.

so operation maria does not go clubbing and spend her hard earned money was a HUGE success this week. so proud of myself. i make my own lunch. AND COFFEE. which is life altering.. because i love my visa card. i love how easily i can take it out of my wallet.. and then use it on little shit things. like a triple grande hazelnut soy latte. ohhh fuck ya.

lets play a game. where i know youre talking about me. and you still pretend to like me. but i dont care if you like me. because i dont need you. alas. its a fun game. because you dont know that i know.. until now anyways.

go find your own friends to play with. im a possessive bitch. back uppppppp!!!

so my cousin is into this girl. i look at her. elevator stare. he comes back to me and i say, "no. shes not good enough. shes looks typical." cousin says, "what do you mean?" other cousin says, "wow. judgemental much?" i say, "i am judgmental. do you not know who my mother is? where do you think i learned it from??" FUNNYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

i love famjam nights. theyre the best. mostly because they dont happen often. im sure if i saw them on the regular i wouldnt appreciate those moments as much. but since i dont.. i love.

school? travel? work? ohhhhhhhhhh life. apparently my next six months will be a breeze. i hope so. id hate to break a sweat trying to do life sans problem.

am currently talking to a friend about how much i dislike filipino girls. which is funny because i have filipino girl friends. but theres a difference. some girls are just straight up annoying. and sometimes dumb. and i dont mingle well with the stupid. and that speaks volumes of you because i am not the shiniest apple in the tree either. or however the phrase goes.

i need the hunt more in my life. one more month people. and speaking of.. could nov 20th be any farther away? good lord.

i wish VIFF was exciting.. too bad nobody cares. i care.. to an extent. i just like festivals thats all. i also like bloc parties. oh bloc party. i know this i was so last week but it needs to be recognized. the final bloc party in vancouver was the shiiiiieeeeeeeet. outdoor partying. blocked off street. maria drunk? c'est magnifique!

i leave you with this: order the fucking pancakes.

poster of a girl

the hunt has hit a whole new level of crazy. its real. its deep. its almost like chicken. BUT WOW. i never thought i would resort to being actually mobile when it came to the hunt. theres a difference between walking around vancouver and SPEED RACING with papz to catch a glimpse of rpattz.

oh. but it was well worth it. unsuccessful. but still worth it.because how many ppl can actually say they were part of trail of papz cars behind rpattz's taxi. HAH! oh. and bobby long is ridiculously hot. like woah. i love the hunt and the hunt loves me.

my crazy has hit parents. real ones. miss lopez's parents to be exact. they went to yaletown in hopes of seeing celebrities? who are you? YOU ARE NOT ME. WHY ARE YOU INADVERTENTLY HUNTING? hahahha so proud that ive rubbed off on them in such a positive way.

im poor. i need to save money. i just realized that i over paid my mastercard and underpaid my visa. which means.. i may have interest fees. EFF.

so the twelves concert was pretty dope. once i heard my metric remix i was complete. har har har. and then FOBric? umm.. kinda cool only because i loved the reunion. everything else pretty much sucked. skanks hos and fellas with their "G-ed up swagger" and by that i mean.. ed hardy. hells ya i love to be surrounded by that ish!!... no.

back to school? heck no. i wish. i miss education. i miss learning!!!

did i mention that im poor? how can i expect to go to europe next year if i dont save.

what could be more entertaining than watching dvd box sets of teenage drama genre? watching it on tv. watched the series premiere of melrose place. oh man. i have a new crush. and his name is michael rady. so cute. loved him in travelling pants. hes greek. his stylist did wonders for him. and so.. i love him. obviously. because lets be real. i am a tween deep down.

i cant wait to travel. 2010. am counting down the months.

you and i both.

jason mraz is love. his music pierces my HEART i tell you!!

im getting used to typing with my solar nails, yaaaa!!! they look guuuuuuud riiighhh?? insert crazy asian accent now. thanks.

havent been blogging lately. so busy. you know. jumping off cliffs, meeting celebrities. oh. and my friend had a baby. no big deal or anything.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! its a huge deal. baby lyriq is soooo cute. and sooo tiny. just like her tita ;)

i get nostalgic just thinking about RCH. makes me smile. i had some good (and not so good) times there. oh yes. yayersss.

EN VOGUE TOMORROW. FREE YOUR MIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIND. the pne = summer is almost over.

pretty sure i dont know where my cast is. I NEED HELP, FRIENDS. then again, i probably wont be able to pay any attention to that.

im so tired these days. seriously. my sleeping pattern is fucked for life again. i sleep but i wake up all the damn time. ugh. its annoying. and most def taking a toll on my work ethic. i dont wake up early enough to grab a coffee before work. no coffee = maria doesnt walk fast = maria is still sleeping standing up = unhappy sales. BAH.

at the end of the day, i am a selfish person. at least i can admit it. i mean, i know when to listen and when to take the focus off of myself but there are some people who simply cant. it makes me laugh.

i dont like it when my worlds collide. you people may not like that i dont like it but hey, at least im being honest. would you rather me lie? didnt think so.

am craving dosas again.. NBBY LADIES LETS DO THIS (cough bien make it happen)

500 days of summer is still the best movie ive ever seen... this year =P

im feeling very naked without my twilight movie in my dvd collection. miss lopez you better get a move on and start watching it

DID YOU KNOW... that im on youtube? hahaha over 7000 hits, ladies!! good job!! hehe kellan lutz walks with fans in vancouver. YOU KNOWWWWWWWWW IT.

i have a new found appreciation for babies. i mean, ive always loved them but im also very awkward around them. mostly because i have ADD and get distracted easily. but no. not this time!!! hehehehe!! this ones different.. shes little!! eeeeeeee!! we're gonna be best friends, you'll see =)

the hunt.

we love the hunt. its the crazy in me coming out in full force. its real and its deep. you dont question my motives. you dont judge me. frick, even if you do judge me.. i wont care because i have fun and oddly enough.. so do the ppl who partake in this with me =)

day one of the hunt was a HUGE success. was really supposed to go with miss suzara but she had stuff to do.. ergo sam lopez the sis and janice. sam and jan wanted to go because... idk. they wanted to see what was the hype about?

anyways. no joke. maybe half an hour of not even really looking just walking around we see dun dun dunnn KELLAN LUTZ. so big. his arms are the size of my head. its ridic. fans are surrounding him. he starts to walk away. i go up to him.. and it goes a little something like this...

MP: hey can i take a picture with you?
KL: who? me? why? dont you want to take a pic with that guy? (points at papz)
MP: no. i just think youre pretty cute
JY: pretty sure you just made her day.
KL: k well can we walk for a bit and then take a pic?
MP: sure. soo whats up? how are you liking vancouver? (loves our city!) what did you buy? (workout gear. i only have three pairs of shorts) blahblahblahh
KL: you know, you remind me of my best friend, natalie. shes funny, outgoing...
MP: omg really? is she short too??
KL: well... i wasnt going to say..
MP: omg so she is!!
.. we then find a spot to take pics. do the pic. the papz also take pics. we say thank you so much and then thats that.

we are then giddy. BEYOND giddy. sam lopez loves white men now. hahaha he was so nice. so crazy. love him. love it all. but. we are not done.

so we are walking around some more trying to figure out what to do. do we continue the hunt? well, where would they be? lets get japadogs. okay so now what? and them BAM. there is xavier samuel. so hot. his style is so fresh. and his accent.. ooomg his accent. our convo wasnt so great. i stumbled. i asked if his name was xavier. he said yes. i say omg youre in twilight can i have a pic! we chat about vancouver and what his plans are for the day. simple. direct. OH BUT ITS NOT OVER.

we start walking around.. and BAM. we see xavier again. we're so embarassed cuz we really werent stalking him we were just walking around and hes so sweet. he waves and says hey to us. SO HOT. did i mention we love his style? damn those aussies. they dress well.

lastly, we spot peter fancinelli however you spell.. AND JENNY GARTH. and their family. it was so awkward cuz i tried to be stealth. but when i saw miss garth my mouth just dropped and sped walked to her and started talking about 90210. dont care about the husband at this point. love. HER. hahah no pic though. because its family time. it was rude enough that we spoke with them with their kids present. so we understand =)

end the day with drinks, funny convo, jumping pics, and more hot dogs. WHAT A GREAT DAY <3

when it was me.

my sleeping patterns are effed for life. seriously. so it was like 9pm and i was exhausted but madre said, "no dont sleep yet or else you wont sleep tonight!" so i was like hmms okay i'll watch tv with the sister. what happens? i fall asleep. i think i was out for a solid hour or so. anyways, it is now 1230am. and im not tired. CRAP.

im all out of dvds to watch. well thats a lie. i borrowed august rush from chad. but im not in the mood for something like that. i want cheesy chick flicks.. like 17 again!! hehehe!!

so the after party to the baby shower was yote.. obvs. but it was not yote. oh HELL NO IT WAS NOT. there were too many whilte people. and i said that out loud. a white guy looked at me and laughed. well it was truuuue!!! and so many sluts. sorry guys, but i am not 19 and do not enjoy the dry hump dance. back the fuck up. it was a different crowd. the music lacked soul. and more importantly.. there were lasers. green ones. i felt like i was at caprice. if i wanted to party in a place like that, i would have gone downtown. but no. i like my hole in the wall bar. but not when its filled with children. or maybe im just getting too old for the yote. oh! and to top it all off.. despite the abundance of Caucasians im the building i stil felt like i was in the Philippines. so. many. FOBS!!! where is the 1.5 generation at!! (refer to vancouver sun aritcle re: aritzia) either they were white. or they were full on bakit why filipinos. and im not trying to hate or anything but you know what im talking about. the ego inflated im the ishh boys who think that just by grinding up on you is somehow an invitation into your lady business. once again i repeat.. back. the. fuck. up. needless to say, yote failed. epic fail.

do not tell me kstew and rpattz are dating. i refuse to believe, damnit!! oh. on that note, my coworker, alyssa "vanessa hudgens" suzara wants me to take her hunting. i cant stop laughing about that. its awesome.

so i went to get my nails done. how typical it was run by nammers. and then when they were done i was looking at my new nails (which btw are so weird.. they make clicking noises. im not used to that!) and then the viet guy was like, "it look guuuuud right?" omg. i loved it. nammers make me smile.

you know what else makes me smile? old school beats. sigh. cant get enough of it. i am so proud to be a child raised in the 90s.

another day another dollar. work is still interesting.. for now. i have to keep my eyes open though for opportunity. cant walk around blind sighted anymore.

im in my moods again. this party girl is DONE. i want to watch movies and eat pizza, damnit!!

so she weighs a buck oh five. and i guess that shes alright.. if perfections what you like.

help im alive

am surprised how much i actually DONT want to go hunting. i mean, obvs i do because its hilarious to actually say that i am. buuuut right now, am perfectly content with sleeping. in my own bed, thank you. sorry matt, but those blogs of my adventures will have to wait til im back on the wagon. and believe me.. the day will come. PS - totally hating on how LA papz are in my city. we are becoming a true hollywood north. my predictions are coming true. it starts with twilight guys. first twilight. then the olympics. and then the next thing you know, we're gonna have our own walk of fame with stars on the sidewalks and chinese theatre. imagine how crazy that would be?! am not sure how i feel about this anymore.

my alcohol consumption is increasing errday. its kind of gross. or kind of awesome? you decide! the way i see it.. its summertime?!?! suure..

im so totally loving my new phone. its so smart (hence the name 'smartphonne,' duhhh) but seriously. am txting on it always. i google everything. and i get to stalk.. i mean, view, where people are. twitter is scary.

need new music. educate me, please. my only not so mainstream music is the shit i hear at work. and granted, sometimes they give me good education like la roux or little boots but i feel that they are slowing down. it used to be that what i heard in my store would only hit the radio 6-12months later. these days, i find that im hearing the same stuff all at once?! if that makes sense... in any case, i want music education and i want it maintenant!!

i love bboys. its a fact now. shieet. totally thought i was over that phase from back in the day. but no. what was once a bonus is now a necessity. crap. vancouver lacks that scene. where oh where can i go!! dtrix is love. bwahahah!!

im always tired these days. perhaps its the irregular sleeping patterns. i sleep at 3am and then wake up every couple of hours. its weird. i dont like it. i think i may start crying. wait. stop. i find i sleep best after a good night of dancing. yes. and by dancing i mean drinking. how sick is THAT.

1st love nights at tunnel (wed nights) play some of THE BEST hip hop my ears have heard. loved the music. almost didnt feel like drinking cuz i was enjoying the scene so much.. i said almost. i highly encourage everyone to test drive that night. its music for the soul, yo.

am ridiculously excited for baby lyriq to come. its kind of crazy. i almost freaked out at work today just thinking about it. and then i freaked out about something else at work. sam lopez saw it in my eyes. there were daggers coming out of them. the look of death. im learning how to master it. careful. piss me off enough i just might write a nasty blog about it. and i wont hold back. (flashback to dennys throwdown not so long ago. 'ya. him. that mother fucker thats walking. ya. you. keep walking mother fucker' - i still smile when i think about it)

why do parents let their children wear makeup? it will ruin their skin in the future!! i thank my mother everyday for scolding me every time i dare put on eye shadow and blush when i was a tween. flawless skin is my reward. ahhhhahahhkdfjkajf

time for my girly fix: me + bed + the wedding planner. yesssssssssss!!!!!! i gots my kleenex box ready.

PEACE SUCKKAS!

kick ball change

HA! dance that, suckkaaaa!!

am feeling really old. watched the teen choice awards. i remember when i was with the bffs watching THE FIRST ONE in my basement. britney won the lifetime achievement blahblahblah award? wtf. i remember when she won "choice hottie" OHHHHHHH MAN. i totally feel my age right now. it hurts. real deep.

twilight takes the cake, as per usual. when are they coming back to vancouver. i need to express my dedication to the series by finding rpattz and making him love me. right. in a perfect world he would fall in love with me and i would be the miraculous height of 5'2. ive always wanted to be 5'2. seems like a good 'cute' height. the air is far fresher up thurr then it is down hurrr.

need a haircut. and perhaps a mani pedi. been so busy with dramadramadrama that ive forgotten to take care of how i look. shit. dont look at me. hated gsm pictures. HATE YOU, JEN!!! i kid i kid... but seriously. all sorts of ugly.

i think its time i gym it. i say it all the time. but seriously. am feeling soo incredibly ugly these days. and slow. ohhh so slow.

cant listen to slow jamz. they make me cry. i can watch sad movies though! but no. no sad music please. too much crying for one week. dont need more, thank you!!

hah. funny that. boys2men starts playing on my itunes. fuck my life. go away. le sigh... insert sad girly complaints.

the baby shower is this week. a first for many. im freaking out again. flashback to 8 months ago when i got that ohso short txt msg. shit. what do i buy. what do i wear. I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR. what does she need. have people remembered to set the day aside. will there be a huge turnout as i hope there will be. whats to expect. who else will be there. is there more drama in the certain fields that i know still may have drama. will there be drinking. are we getting hammered. i feel like i should get hammered. numbs the pain. SHIT WE SHOULDNT BE DRINKING DURING THESE TIMES!!!!!!!!!!!!

i got a new phone. its seriously so G. too G for me actually. im a simple girl. i like to call myself "oldschool" which is code for too lazy to update myself on the latest technology. i have pvr. dont have a clue how to use it. but whatever. i got the G phone. and its dope. however.. ive lost your numbers.. or well, most peoples. so if you txt me.. and i txt "who is this" dont be offended. its a necessary vice.

am still smiling about yesterday. shut up. we dont speak of it still. except for EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! i love.. lamp.

how to save a life

MY EMO POST FOR THE MONTH, YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. everyones been so emo these days. might as well join in on the 'fun'

heres a new one: what if you miss someone. but you shouldnt. because those people have caused so much hurt to not only yourself but to those around you. its hard. because you establish what would have been one of the greatest friendships (one that is almost tear worthy let me tell you).. and then.. shit happens. and then time passes you by. and all the memories that were shared were nothing but pictures in your mind. and then you hear the song. the song that always reminds you of that dear friend. oh crap. now for the rest of the concert you start to think, "aww.. back in the day.." you stare into the crowd. and then you think you see him. no. not possible. and then, the fates throw you a curve ball and put the two of you in the same doorway to a pizza place twenty minutes away from the concert venue. FUNNY THAT. hmmms now what? nothing. you walk away from the friend who knew you best. meanwhile your head is screaming to stop but your body is telling you to take that pizza TO GO. you clearly have no control of your motor skills at this point. why the confusion. it should be black and white. they fuck up and make you cry and make you question your beliefs so you cut the friendship. you cut off all ties. it should be black and white. it was for a while. and now, its all so grey.

.. ALMOST bffs.

thats what friends are for.

sometimes it takes a kick in the ass to remind us that there are people who matter and there are people who care. i am always checking to make sure that i surround myself with positive people. bakit why? parce que im a crazy person.. who needs constant reassurance that im actually not that crazy. went crazy for a bit due to.. stupid shit. but im back! and i couldnt have done it without the cool kids. i choose to be around these people because i know that when im down, they will be there to pick up my pieces. is that a selfish thought? methinks not because lord knows i will return the favor in full . theres no time for fake. i hate fake. and i refuse to waste my time on useless individuals. to the friendsters, i thank you =)

this weekend was full of.. alcohol. lots of consumption. as per usual. yote saturday = what the fuck was going on. what a gongshow. goodtimes!! shine sunday = i got spat on. its okay though because maybe i was in your way!! hahaha oh michelle. clearly im making up for not drinking on the three day weekend. hit the bottle hard. twas a great weekend.

drunk texting is actually kinda fun. i forgot how much i loved doing that. be prepared, people. youre bound to get one soon enough. sam lopez, you are my first.

brown sugar = AWESOME MOVIE. had a convo with christy before watching. i asked what it was about. she replied "my life." ohh lord. but it has soo many hip hop references that i guess i could sort of understand.. sure. why not. hahah i wish i had a male bff since i was 10 and ended up marrying him! that would be too perfect. (flashback to years back.. never date your bff. it ends badly. i take it all back) key quotes include "when did you fall in love with hip hop" and "youre a perfect verse over a tight beat"

hehe we all know i love my teenage drama series. we all know im a sucker for chick flicks. am going to watch ANOTHER cinderella story soon. thanks nguyen family. you rock my socks.

THE FRAY IS ON WEDNESDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and ive yet to DL their entire new album. shit. and thats my day of errands. 1) costco 2) gsm outfit shopping 3) find my starlets.

THEYRE BACk. THEYRE BAAAAAAAAACK. ive been waiting what is it now? two months? for them to come back. oh lord. welcome back my crazy. the hunt is SO ON!! you know what im talking about. and if you dont.. then you clearly dont know what im all about.

reunion date. i could almost cry about that. hahaha it was a blast. NO GLOWBAL? CLOSED ON AUG3RD?! WHAT THE FUCk. life is over. kidding! went to cactus instead. pretty delicious. and then they took me to WHITE ROCK. ive never been to white rock. and i must say, that i fell in love with white rock. its so pretty!! so cute!! i would hang out there on the regular if only parking were free. 2 bucks an hr. eff that noise. sooo wait. i love how we dubb silly titles to each other: sam was dubbed the smart one. she knows the difference between circumfrance and radius. linda is the dumb one. but shes really not dumb, just slow. (haha i mean that in the most loving way possible) im the funny one. because lets face it, im hilairous no matter what. BUT WHAT IS LISA NGUYEN!? riddle me this.

MSTKRFT. DEADMAU5. JASON MRAZ. JAGGED EDGE. WHOS WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

back to reality. sorta. kinda. not really. oh life. you never cease to fail me.

guns dont kill people..

.... lasers do. bwahahahah!! major laser cd. music educate THAT!!

i watched knocked up. started to cry. and then i laughed really hard at myself. im an idiot.

the malls are busy. even at 845pm on a wednesday night. what the deuce is that? anything to avoid this heat wave we're experiencing i guess. but i must say, that it makes me mad. because then little fuckers walk around in my store. touching things. unfolding sweatfleece. AND BUYING NOTHING. makes me mad. more so because i have to clean up their dirty trail of clothing. my shits expensive, NO TOUCHY.

i hope to catch the last fireworks show.. but at the same time, i dont care nearly as much as i did a few weeks back. funny that.

toby comes back in 11 days! toby comes back in 11 days!! yayyyyyyy!!! no. im not excited. not at all.

we hate kstew. she acts like a junkie going through withdrawl. we love taylor. hes so perfect. maria.. hes17hes17hes17... DAMNIT!!!

if taylor swift ever came to vancouver, i would totally go to her concert. sans hesitation.

OH! so lmfao concert = pretty badass. aside from the fact that i was absolutely trashed, the music was good!! so party time!! hahaha crazy mad orgy-esque vip table. bunch of oldie hawns and 45yr old male 'bachelors.' with their 400 dollah champaigne. and the c--t skirts. close your legs i can see your vag. ohhh and the whores. i clearly wasnt skank enough for the lmfao concert. i didnt know one of the requirements to enter the building was to wear no clothes. a girl showed up in her bikini. it was leopard print. and she had lioness hair. WHAT THE FUCK.

thanks famjam for the goodtimes!! hehehe next up? YOTEEEEEE!!!

its long weekend. its payday on friday. what a dangerous combo. i dont know what to do with myself.

drink all day. play all night.

LMFAO TOMORROW!!! gonna be siiiick!! hahah too bad i am not very familiar with their songs. whatever. party with the famjam, wheeeeeeee!!

am still looking for someone to watch jason mraz with. inquire within.

update: rehearsals start next week. but that does that mean theyre in vancouver next week?? where are my sources!! PEOPLE I NEED YOU MORE THAN EVER!!!!!!!! must. find. rpattz!!

had a convo with xian. why do people cheat? why oh god why are people so selfish? sometimes i wonder why people do what they do.

its. too. HOT OUTSIDE!!! sleeping in the basement. not cold enough. drinking too much water and ultimately having to go pee all the time. this is ridiculous the amount of times i have to get my ass out of bed to urinate. gahhhd!!

baby shower baby shower baby shower!!!!!!!!!!! im so excited. it will be the MOTHER of all baby showers. like the dreams says, 'these bitches aint got shit on mee'.. and when i say 'me' i really mean HER.

three day weekend OVER. must admit. got bored on the third day. thankfully, i have you suckas to entertain me. thanks for the dins!!

ive exceeded my visa limit again. i need to quit being so generous with my money. the way i see it, you will all pay me back some way.. some how.. hahaha

my inner twi hard is emerging. its a whole different side of maria crazy. wheres my street team!!!! (coughcough liislindasam)

dealt with my drama. am ready to focus on other things. like babies. and twilight. mmmm energy being used for things more promising. yeaaahhh!! =)

just a small town girl

i live in the suburbs. sometimes i hate it because theres nothing to do. these days, i embrace the silence.

been sleeping in the basement due to excessive warmth at 7am. now i cant seem to get my ass out of bed. memory foam, i love you.

three day weekend. what is a girl to do? its times like this when i wish i made a mini trip to like.. vegas or something. ohhh life.

i am officially out of my funk. muchos gracias to those that had to deal with my constant banter about how i felt my life sucked.

someone or something needs to inspire me fast. am running out of things to say. where is my inspiration, damnit!!

visited my first baby registry at babies r us. twas quite the trip. usually i leave this up to my parents because they are the ones who usually pay for the baby gifts. nope. this one is up to me.. and whoever wants to participate in what will be an awesome gift. one more month, guys!!! totally excited to meet baby lopez =)

miley cyrus to appear in the next sex and the city movie. thoughts? im not sure really. i think shes a cute kid. but to be real, i would have much rather they put someone more fabulous. like gaga.

twilight twilight twilight. i spent most of my evening yesterday watching the comic con videos on youtube. im a geek. i dont care what you think!!

beaching tomorrow. going to achieve the ultimate form of golden that i possibly can. too bad i havent quite achieved the rockin bod that i know i can!! (bahahahahahahah who are we kidding)

gossiping is not good, friends. sometimes we need to keep our mouths shut. and im learning that i should. except when in this blog. you enter at your own risk.

janice yuen: i would never leave you for 007.. even for... well.. ya. hahahaha =)

let me buy you a couple of rounds..

ode to sebastian, the dinosaur... ya you know it. DINOSAUR. hahahaha we can put you in the plants, the sweatfleece, THE CASHDESK!! oh myyy!!!! my fave: front window, baby. hahaha and in case you didnt know.. sebass is my friend, saghi's, pet dinosaur. yes. hes real. and yes. hes plastic.

nothing beats the beach and drinking. yesterday was goodtimes. 12hrs of drinking. pretty sure i almost died.. and then i took a nap. props, mes amies. props. "ooh! he looks cute! KISS THAT ONE!!"

am blogging quickly because its time to get my drink on with mes amies. only for you chels - ONE NIGHT ONLY. and happy bday my LB frind. little bitches UNITE! ive a feeling its gonna be another one of those weekends.

I HAVE NEXT WEEKEND OFF I HAVE NEXT WEEKEND OFF I HAVE NEXT WEEKEND OFF!! what am i gonna do with all my time? wednesday is usually the new sunday in my world but noooooooooo sir!! SUNDAY IS SUNDAY!!! its been a while since ive had a weekend.. a real one. it feels good.

patron tequila me and my mami sitas.. whatever the fuck. seriously. PCD wannabes!! "hush hush" ya diig?

oh, and PS - just because we're corporately sold out of tna sweatfleece XL in citronella dont think that i cant hit you with XXS tile blue!!

someone plan a bbq. im craving smoked meat. and pasta salad. and ROCKBAND. ooh weeee oooh!!

.... by the end of the night im gonna have you soo f-cked up =)

[edited at 3:15]

oh lord. promised to blog post clubbing. ran into a friend of a friend of a friend of mine. he reads my blog. pretty sure i almost died of laughter. the good kind. THANKS, MATT. you are too cool for school.

so wtf. i was supposed to go to shine and party with my NBBY girls. as i head out to leave i get a txt saying they were too drunk so they left. what the deuce. bien i owe you one dosa. on a monday. hahahaha hope it was a good time! sorry i left too late =(

THE POLICE ARE OUT TO GET ME. needed gatorade on the asap level. because.. well.. because im a selfish bastard that had to drink.. and then sobered up and drove. but a selfish bastard none the less. so i went to grab me and the anak some gatorade. THERES POLICE THERE. fuck my life. must be stealth. miade it out alive. i live to drive another day.

blogging. drinking like a 2yr old. shiet. you all better appreciate this. i do this for ANNE NACAUILI!! MAD SHOUT OUT!!! hahahah... happy? yayyers.

i have a vague recollection of NO TMZ OKAY!!!!!!!!!!... why oh why do i let this happen. why is vancouver so small? WHY ARE MY GUY FRIENDS ASHAMED OF ME!!!!! im sorry i ruin your game. hehehe. i heart you!!! but really.. stop running away from me. i need cockblock, thank you!

umm THANKS FOR NOT SAYING HELLO. no, sam. we are NOT going to be those children that are like "omg ive been waiting to say hi to you all night and now that i am i just wanted to say hi." boy pleaaaaaaaase. future fashion guru or NOT i am still better than you.

wanted to stalk zac efron tonight. decided not to. his pretty hair can wait a weekend.

okay. am working in a few hours. need to catch sleep. need to remind myself that my job is a place of solitude and that i dont want to kick myself in the face every time i sell a sweater. must remember that theres a plan for me. must remember that at the end of the day, they kinda like me there.... VOMIT.

buttered popcorn and coke.

still unsure how i feel about harry potter movie. promised to blog. but still uncertain. kinda liked it. kinda disappointed. wished there were fight scenes but loved the subtle hints to a hermione and ron relationship (i love them!) it was most def a good lead up to what i hope will be a fantastic 7 and 8th movie.

i hate ginny weasley. even in the books. i find her character annoying. "ooh look im shy and i love my brothers bff." go away. your face irritates me. AND your hair is too strait. borderline asian straight. white people need bounce in their hair. its unnatural without. amen to hermione and her hair.. oh so full of body. props.

who is the better male counterpart? harry or ron?? i prefer a ron.

there needed to be more of that ryan phillape look a like character in the movie. i gasped a litte every time he was on the screen. so much pretty. too bad he had to play the fantastic asshole character. i hope he makes it big in the US. so i can see more. bow chica bow wowwwww.

luna lovegood is a crazy. i one day hope to have a friend that random. but would prefer if that friend dressed better.. and didnt wear creepy glasses. vanity at its finest.

thanks batch for being my date tonight! teehee.. and for not judging me when i almost.. ALMOST ate another slice of pizza. muwhahah

harry, hermione, and ron remind me of the quote unquote, "tripod." i miss them sometimes. i miss watching movies or tv together on the individual couches!! i miss guy talk!! le sigh.. but i'll never tell them that to their face. no need to get their inflated heads even more inflated.

would have been smart if new moon trailor was in the HP previews.. mind you, they dont need more publicity its gonna be intense for life come november.. but then again, they hit the same demographic. bad PR!!

on a completely unrelated harry potter reference, am currently obsessed with "you belong with me" - taylor swift she can do no wrong, i tell you. she wears high heels i wear sneakers

make it raiiiiiiiiiiiiin!!

dear saghi, you are one of the coolest chicks ive ever met. your style is my steelo. one day i hope to be juuuuuuuust like you... now lets go throw some dollah dollah bills y'all in the ayer and make it raiiiiiiiiiiiin!!!

current thought bubble: is it legit to be fired because of what your boss read/saw on facebook?!?! manager wants to start reading my blogs (because lets face it, im fucking hilarious) but am hesitant to link her because she may not like the shit i write about, especially about work. limited profile the peoples? well then why have her as a friend. this is my outlet. my blog is the shit bananas to me. its what i think without hesitations and YES some of the things i say are a bit unorthodox but hey. thats why blogs = my thoughts = very much uncensored, thank you. freedom of speech. its all i have. oh work. you can take away my evenings and weekends but so shall it be written so shall it be done you WILL NOT take away my blogging!!!!! hahahahahahdjfkjdkfa =)

the bp and our game. its a lifestyle really. a lifestyle that has thus coined us the nickname, "barstars." drink all day. play all night. good job, ladies. a fine weekend. welcome back, queen bee. your gretchen weiner has most certainly missed your crazy antics.

am currently txting while blogging. a faux pas. no one is allowed to interrupt my thought process. have already hung up on two phone calls. must FOCUS!!!!


HARRY POTTER TOMORROW. HARRY POTTER TOMORROW. HARRY POTTER IN T MINUS 25HRS. so excited. something about the british. something about accents really. and HELLO freddie stroma. my new crush. rpattz WHO? i kid i kid no one can replace him. but seriously. a fresh face who kind of reminds me of ryan philippe. OHHHHHHHHHH MAN. i heart celebrities. i heart eye candy. we all know im a sucker for pretty faces. its almost a complex i have. insert giddy school girl laughter. i dont care what you think. you tell me that this picture does not make you smile. even a little bit!!

which reminds me, zac effron is in vancouver filming a movie. must find him. WILL find him. im determined. my energy will be used to not only find josh jackson but zac effron too now!! ive got my work cut out for me. once again i ask the powers that be (that being youuuuuuu!!) to HELP ME FIND THEM!!!!!!!!!!! insider information please. holla at yo giiiiiirl.

for now, hp > twilight.

saw my cousins house for the first time this weekend. its a block away from english bay. needless to say i will be crashing on that couch time and time again.. HUZZAH!! i kid i kid.. but seriously. his place is totally boss.

would very much appreciate a cupcake from cupcakes right now. or tomorrow.. or maybe thursday. already planning my day off. naturally it includes me sleeping. and obviously if weather permits, it will be near a body of water of some sort. so excited.

you know what else im excited for? friday. why? because its shine. oh shine. we love shine. the music. the people. the alcohol. oh the drink. they make them with love. SO LOVING i tell you. one DLI and a red dragon and im good to go. gladiators and a dress. eff my life to themed parties.

i am a sucker for cheap teenage pop culture. they have no lyrical or educational merit. its candy for my brain. and i have a mad hardcore sweet tooth. OOH MAN that was lame. but seriously.. must find the US weekly with rpattz on it. 7 posters!! SEVEN!!! sweet jeebus how old am i????!!!

anne ate my lunch for tomorrow today. why? i dont know. she likes to think that whatever is on the counter is fair game. its funny to her. its kinda funny to me. watch yourself, anak, because one of these days i WILL throw a tna classic fit sweatfleece XL in citronella at you. yeaaaaaaaaa sucka.

negativity and sarcasm. my two new best friends.

birthday sex.

happy birthday to the sis and anne nacauili!!!

so this is what i figure. i should continue to write my fb blogs and just copy and paste to my blogspot blogs. make sense? back by populaire demand insert the useless rants of me. on facebook. for your reading pleasure. what is the point of a blog if 1) no one reads them and 2) no one comments on them. then its just pointless shit out in the internet universe. and im worth reading. ahahahhahha!!

am currently feeling that "hush hush" song by PCD. must admit, their doll domination cd is pretty boss.

sleeping all day is great. it was a gradual progression from bed - park - couch. haha

watched more sex and the city. i can understand why most women relate to this show. it reveals all dynamics of the female mind wrapped up in bubble gum plastic. which character can you best relate to?

OH MAN. slurpees are freaking DElicious. had my first one of the summer today and i must say. so divine. so freaking divine. and theyre so cheap!! i used to think they were expensive.. theyre $1.36 roughly. mind you, i was an unemployed brat when thought this.. oh life.

so ive been trying to cut back on the juice. and by juice i mean alcohol. it came as a huge surprise at a bbq earlier this evening. everyone had a different version of SHOCKED on their face. is it such a surprise?? hmmm.. i really am the drunk bride. either way, i succumbed to the peer pressure and drank some wine. and then i got kinda drunk. and then i had to stop drinking cuz i was going to be really drunk had i finished that glass. now i just have a very unpleasant headache. damn you, wine. damn you.

on that note, wine drunk is far different from hard liquor drunk. i feel more enlightened when i drink wine. from a glass, no less.

i am not looking forward to a work infested weekend. especially when the weather is supposed to be 25 plus. its times like these when i wish i had my weekends. or at least two consecutive days off!!!! rage anger rage.

'NO TMZ, okayyyyyyy??' pure genious.

by your side.

no one said that life would be easy. no one said that getting what you deserved would be a walk in the park. if i had a penny for every time i heard someone say, "life sucks" i would be a bajillionaire. ya.. BAJILLionaire.

we live in a very tough world and sometimes we forget that despite all the bad, IT COULD BE WORSE. for instance, im currently bitching and complaining about how my current occupation is nothing short of an embarrassment considering i have a degree. i complain about how its taking them 4839843 years to promote me to a position that we've discussed months and months ago. why is it taking ten years past forever? idk either. but im still going to work towards it. its discouraging and sometimes i do want to give up but i wont. as i said before, no one said life was easy. besides, it could be worse: i could have no job. i could be a worker who isnt even being considered for any type of position or promotion. ergo.. THERE IS A BRIGHT SIDE TO EVERYTHING.

"damned if you do damned if you dont." a friend mentioned that to me earlier today and i must say that it got me thinking. its hard to participate in something when knowing the outcome will always "damn" you. whats his solution? just dont do anything. and i guess after all the negative reinforcement that hes received while trying to do right would bring forth that type of attitude BUUUUT!! sometimes i wonder.. wouldnt you rather be the person that kept on giving because its the right thing to do than be the person who quit because life got too hard?!?!

so whats the moral of the story? coach whitey from oth said it best, "So don't be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, cause most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you wish for. Maybe you'll get more than you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you. The road is long and in the end, the journey is the destination."

on that note, congrats robert, to your new baby girl!!! cant wait to meet her. i hear shes beautiful =)

untouched.

ive always been a guys girl. you know. the girl thats one of the guys. thats code for, the girl that never cared how she looked. and sometimes i love it. but as of lately ive just enjoyed being a girl! hehe! i actually think about what im going to wear. i paint my nails. and i take extra care of my skin!! its brilliant. right now my bathroom smells like a freaking day spa thanks to the various cleansing products i just used!! hehe now i understand why girls take an hour in the washroom. no lie, my skin is softer than a baby's bottom.

am i a doormat for people who intimidate me. yes. i am afraid of people. not a lot of people. oh but there are people i fear. fear of them judging me (which is funny considering im usually the one doing all the judging!) i stumble on my words. i laugh out of nervousness. hmms.. old habits die hard.

there are these girls that shop at my store on the regular. i call them the trio. they all look the same: long and lean, sleek hair, tight jeans, and decked out as if theyre going to the clubs. ya. you know those girls.. THOSE girls. they make me laugh. although i really cant say theyre terrible people. i dont know them. for all i know they could have a PhD in molecular biology... or theyre high school graduates who live off their drug dealer boyfriends. moral of the story, they are pretty girls. but they are not special. in our younger years we try to fit in and wear what everyone else is wearing. well, over time ive learned that different is good. DIFFERENT is special.

i hate day two. ladies, you know whats up.

oh, happy canada day. sadly i had to work. missed out on all the fun in downtown vancouver. heard there were parades. heard there was a lot of weed passed around too. i kinda wished i got off my lazy ass and watched the fireworks. then again, celebration of lights is less than a month away. seen one fireworks show - seen them all.

its been decided that i need a new cell phone. i dropped mine again when i got out of my car. and by car i mean truck. and by drop i mean a very far distance. i jump when i have to enter my vehicle. sad, but true.

i seem to have forgot that i have unopened bills on my desk. my bills need to be paid by friday. damn. imagine how id do with a mortgage. FUCK LIFE. ive forgotten to pay once again for my MSP. someone really needs to remind me...

bonjour jeune fille.

girls weekend was a success! thank you to those who attended. props to michelle for getting carried out of the club before midnight. happens to everyone haha. why did i fall asleep on hastings? what happened between the hours of 3am - 9am?? WHY DID I DRINK SO MUCH?? oh lord. whatever, we looked cute. hahaha

i love you, house of dosa. you are great. on mondays. when its cheap. i love cheap "baby food wrapped in filo." its far more delicious than i make it sound. trust.

do we love life when its drama infested? methinks so. i think without it we wouldnt appreciate the little things. like silence. or a bed. perhaps even the friends who stick around when you yell at them. sex and the city made me think this: why is it that when life is good we freak out expecting the worst is yet to come? because thats how it happens. or at least, thats how we play it out to be.

amen to amazing weather. too bad i cant live it up on canada day with the rest of the world. i live in retail which means, i work stats. the life ive set myself to have certainly does have its flaws. what was it that i heard.. when you walk through one door, another door has therefore shut itself. DAMN.

i have made it my new goal to find josh jackson as he films fringe. he is my bffs shamef--k. i must find him. so she can meet him. and i can officially dub myself as a celebrity groupie. who knows. i could get so good at this "wheres waldo" game i may have to make it a profession and work for PUNKD images. ahhh shiet.

to all you haters out there: MJ was a music ICON. you hear me? ICON. it bugs the crap out of me when tv broadcast stations make a tribute to his life and add his scandals. YES. he had some bumps in the road but theres no need to put that in his TRIBUTE. you put that closet door dirty shit for the biography. his tribute to him and his music should only be of the positive; of the many influences hes made to popular music and to culture as we know it. take THAT and suck on a lemon.

im craving everything from sweets to sours to savory foods. gahhd i hate this time of the month. go away. i might kill you with my words. you have been warned.

to zion.

And I thank you for choosing me
to come through unto life to be
A beautiful reflection of His grace
See I know that a gift so great
is only one God could create
And I'm reminded every time I see your face...

i forgot how amazing lauryn hill was. so much talent, i tell you!! im listening to her miseducation cd and woah man. intense. now THAT is music.

i have this complex where i cant really say what im thinking and moreso i dance around the words in hopes that the person im speaking with will understand what im trying to say. yes. im effed up and confused and it does take a bit of an extra effort to understand my mind. maybe thats why im always so tired.. im working ten times harder against myself to SPEAK ENGLISH. hahahahaha

im so confused as to what i want to do with my life. do i stay with the glorious and yet very tiresome life of retail OR do i move on to something else; something new? im starting to wonder if im settling..

ive started to shop at different stores. its a big step for me. i havent done that since highschool. and i must say that it feels quite liberating. im not pinned down to wear what i see everyday. i can be a bit more creative. it makes me happy. sirens has good cheap clothes. i highly recommend going there.. especially the park royal location (hollaaaaaaa zf!!)

im am eagerly awaiting saturday. girls night, yayyy!!! so shall it be written so shall it be done.

its human nature to want what you cant have - never forget that. THAT is why women are stupid

eat your heart up.

thank goodness for yet again another two days off in a row! the life of retail doesnt offer those very often.. must. maximize. this. moment. but of course i spend most of my time either in my bed or on the couch. im on my feet all day at work theres no need to be on them some more, vraiment?

MMVAs. i still couldnt handle watching it in full. although i did try. taylor is cuteness wrapped up in a 17 yr old boy. the jonas brothers are, dare i say it, good looking? and my life would definitely suck without kelly clarkson aka one of my fave female vocalists.

happy fathers day!! my dad was kinda tired from an overnight trip to seattle with madre. needless to say, it was a quick appreciation dinner haha

i will live the sex and the city lifestyle. NO not the sex part but more like the HELLO I AM AN INDEPENDENT SUCCESSFUL WOMAN, HOLLAAAAAAAA!!! i WILL have cocktails at 2pm with my lunch. i WILL have a group of ladies over at my house to eat chinese take out and i WILL be part of elite society. its gonna happen. youll see!

fuck i forgot to pay my MSP. the government is going to be looking for me soon. ugh.

the countdown is on: 6 days till "party central" aka the ultimate girls weekend. oh man how ive been waiting. amen!!

sometimes id appreciate it if my past left me alone. dont get me wrong, i appreciate friendly conversation every so often but lets be real. i stopped talking to you for a reason. and between me and set individual, i didnt know you for very long so please give it a rest.

so at the korean restaurant we ate at for daddy's day theres this drink desert that they serve and thank god my entire family hates it because i was then entitled to their share. cold cinnamon deliciousness. OHHH YEEAAAA.

im craving pasta. and salad. patio style.

a little bit.

i am officially in love with drake. AHHHHHHHHH. his cd is soo good. his lyrics are awesome!! hahaha OH. and he uses the back beats to lykke li. umm HI THATS TOO GOOD. hahaha anyways, get his cd. listen to it. love it. i wish he were coming to vancouver sans lil wayne etc. i think give it a year.. he could totally be a headliner. and i will be there. ohhh yes.

IM SO EXCITED FOR LA! YAYYYYYYYYY!!!!! and what would be even more awesome? a road trip to VEGAS. oh man. YES. that would be too good. too freaking good. im currently in the works to see if the times will work out for everyone. TBA!!

commercial drive is actually a nice place to chill. im not a huge fan of the antique shops and what not but just chillin walking around the streets is fun!! you see all walks of life on the drive. OH THE DRIVE, you amaze me.

you know what else amazes me? how a movie like the hangover almost got me crying cuz it was so freaking funny. YES. IT IS FUNNY. i approve. and i hate guy movies like that. i mean, some parts were a little bit random.. kind of like how all of a sudden an asian guy shows off his little friend like its nbd. but other than that, goodtimes!! thanks NBBY for a great day =)

i slept for 12hrs. that is how much work is tiring me. because theres no other reason. i dont do anything other than work.. and maybe walk down my hill because i liek to torture myself. its a very long walk. i look forward to doing it again. woooooooooooooot!!!

my sister defended my honor today. props kid. i dont DO yelling. i very much like to avoid any sort of confrontation with people i basically like or have somewhat of a respect for. but the sis? she will lay down the smack down on you. word to the wise, she WILL kick your ass. just "give her a reason."

herpes will stick with you forever... BWAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!!!!!! no wait, thats not funny at all. but if you were chillin with me zf and kat today, you would understand that it is. dirty people suck. "oh you know insert chicks name here ? i have to leave now."

Hands down
I'm too proud, for love
But with eyes shut
It's you I'm thinking of
But how we move from A to B it can't be up to me
Cause you don't know
who i was before you
basically to see a change in me
i'd be losing, so i just ignore you

thats why they call me go girl.

HAHA i watched fans mob rpattz on youtube while he flims a movie in NYC. holy shit canadian fans are FAR LESS crazy than american fans. like wow. youtube that shit if you havent already its most def a good laugh.

sex and the city is a great tv show. i was never a huge fan before. i mean, i would watch it if there was nothing on the tv but for the most part i could hardly consider myself an avid fan. BUT. i was convinced to watch it and surprisingly, its a pretty dope show! hahaha i apparently could learn some important life lessons. here i go giving it a go. why? because i can.

i had a conversation with a friend the other day regarding.. random shit really. haha it started with us discussing how i had to take a pill everyday. she freaks out and assumes im on BC but REALLY its for my asthma. this is the funny part number: a girl goes on BC without having a bf = WHO IS SHE SLEEPING WITH??? but wait!! what if "it helps clear up my pimples." cough bullshit. hmms.. insert 5 minute conversation about whores and how smart itd be if they went on the pill ultimately concluding with the phrase, "do whores.. KNOW theyre whores?" oh chelsea.. the shit we talk about in the back room.

work is EXHAUSTING. like for reals. but i mean, its worth it in the end. im having fun. im getting paid somewhat decently. i cant really complain. im still in no REAL hurry to reach the ultimate career. theres so much of the world that i still have yet to see. you tell me. is it better to see the world when you have responsibilities waiting for you when you get back OR should one take a vacation while theyre responsibilities are practically none?

i miss montreal like crazy. spoke broken french to a customer today. it was grand. je pratique le francais aujourd'hui?? ya. i think thats right. idk. meh. but anyways, mtl was life. it was a great time living there for 5 weeks. oh what i would do to do it again... i miss la belle provence every other day. i miss walking around town with my friends absolutely wasted. i miss the crazy nightlife that i KNOW i was born to be a part of. vancouver, as beautiful of a city you are, you seriously LACK in the party scene. its pathetic really.

damn. you. ALLERGIES!!!!!

my perogative.

so sometimes when im thinking i think in text. like i think of the sentence i want to repeat to myself in my head. does that make sense? its a very long thought process and perhaps this is why im always the last one who gets the joke.
anyways, i was just laying on my bed listening to the.. dare i admit this.. mama mia soundtrack (quiet you!) when i was trying to think about things. obvs this ends up in a note worthy conversation.

ignorance is bliss.

huh. ive spent the last 20 minutes trying to figure out what it is i want to say to myself repeatedly and its those three words. HOW INTERESTING. but its the truth. dont lie. you agree with it too ;)

people continue to amuse me. thank you for providing some much needed entertainment in my semi exciting life. you are 'e-prop' worthy. hahahahaha oh. and when i say "amuse" i mean "irritate the life out of me."

lil love.

tell me what parent in the right mind tries to ground their 20+ year old children. it doesnt work. take away the car? ya that doesnt work either. but what DOES? im apparently grounded for being an accomplice to my sister's.. shit. you tell me. what do i do. what do parents do? how do you control your 20 year old kids? hmmmmmmmmmms...

graduations always make me happy. theyre full of hope. and happiness. its just a whole crapload of cuteness. maybe because theyre so young and underdeveloped children walking around with their cap and gown. oh the cuteness. i love it all. especially at my high school low budget graduation ceremonies. its all just so fun seeing people and teachers youve known for years.. or at least known of. congrats graduates of 2009. you did good.

the MMVAs look more and more intriguing. GAGA is performing! (i love game!!) and twilight is being visually represented with my "shamefu--," taylor lautner. perhaps i will finally watch the show. in full.

i need food. mmm cheese.

my prediction: lakers are gonna have a clean sweep. and i mean, i LOVE magic. but seriously.. theyre no competition for my kobe. ahhahaha

promise in the dark

bellini tuesdays at milestones are actually worth it. patio style sippin on a not so alcoholic but equally delicious beverage... i live a very difficult life in case you didnt know. har har harrr.

i retract my emo post. seriously. its the hormones. eff you, monthly visitor. you cloud my judgement and make me think everything is wrong in life when in actuality, i got it hella good. aside from becoming an angry prat, i look forward to menopause on the mere fact that i will bid you adieu.

on that note: please take it from me.. NO. MORE. DRAMA. this is what i think about it. lifes too short to live it negatively so why waste the time we have on things and people that dont matter. i often find it difficult to differentiate what is dubbed insignificant. indecision, you crazy bastard, you.

rockband is seriously life. i love the paramore song but all i have to say is, "SHUT UP WHEN IM TAKING TO YOU" - oh sam lopez. i can play it on medium setting now.. ahhh shiettt suckkas!!

the weather has been super fantastic but really.. i enjoy it only from a sunroof at my workplace. oh is it still sunny? all i have to do is look up.. and then cry because im there and the sun is... there? haha

mind you.. i spent my day off at kits beach. nothing beats sleeping on the beach in what could be mistaken as underwear.. but BECAUSE it has a different fabric.. its a bathing suit and therefore socially acceptable to lay outside in.

i am a fan of twilight. its goodtimes. i have an OCD for it. but MANNNNNNNNNN am i getting annoyed. i do NOT like the idea of a twilight cruise and no. i think its a ridiculous idea to have twilight tours in vancouver. eff that noise, thank you!

song of the day: thats what you get - paramore... for obvious rockband reasons.

for the record.

No one on the corner has swagger like us
Hit me on my Burner prepaid wireless
We pack and deliver like UPS trucks
Already going hell just pumping that gas

im tired. im annoyed. and im TRYING my best. its so frustrating when you give your all to someone or something and then they dont reciprocate. AHH HOW ANNOYING.

You know I'd love you if I knew you'd let me down
Now go remind you of yourself now
So we need to get away
Oh we want to get away
But we'll never get away, not now

i can only tolerate peoples BULL for so long. i am not perfect. but i try. i will bite my tongue. but only for so long. i am sorry for whoever places the icing on my bitter tasting cake.

leave out all the rest.

IM CRAZY. deal with it. and if you cant, then you can just go suck on a lemon.

some lightweight humor in lieu of this nasty emo crap that ive written: rockband is my bitch. i want a bbq sans police knocking on my door at 6am. it seems that my closets have exploded onto my floor but when i take a look at my sisters room, its not half bad. i am eagerly waiting for girls weekend where we will drink our faces off and have NO WORRIES about the next day. why? because we have ALL. BOOKED. THAT. DAY. OFF!!!! luh you =)

when EH met HELLA

back from the bay area. i must say.. it resembles vancover a lot. especially the weather. oh wait. perezers just bring along the clouds wherever they are. OF. COURSE.

i dont really feel like posting about the trip because im a lazy bastard. so here are the highlights:
- went to jerry's, a filipino joint and ordered enough food for a small army. why? because we wanted to eat EVERYTHING.
- chilled with danny. we walked a mile in great mall, played rock band (which i have now decided has become a necessary purchase), and then watched lakers vs denver game2.
- watched a dress rehearsal that my cousin was directing.. that brought me back to the high school musical days. followed by a massive headache because of a hunger/fatigue combo. not a friendly mix.
- watched the actual play which was pretty kickass. amen to filipino culture. PCN!! drinking with the cast beforehand. house party afterwards.
- saw a chick with booty shorts and thought, "oh to be 16 again." but wait.. shes older? followed by feeding LBs the drink in exchange for chase. it was the worst tasting oj ive ever had.. quite possibly because i didnt exactly measure how much vodka i put in my cup. the people are kick ass. so welcoming to newcomers hehe. thank you, FASA hayword for being so nice to us canadian chicks. I LOVE GUAM and NO. CANADIANS LOCK THERE DOORS WE TRUST NO ONE.
- ihop dennys and in n out were part of the trip. mmm food. americans really know their fast food. seriously. fat kids unite!!
- terminator movie. normally i dont like to watch movies while on vacation but i was down to watch a movie that i had no idea what was going on. i wasnt down to drink (shocking i know).what made MY night was the new moon poster beside our room. oh hells yes. twilight, i can never escape you. nor would i ever want to.
- shopping. shopping. AND SO MUCH SHOPPING. thankfully, iiiii didnt spend 600 bucks on.. lord knows what.
- chillin in an RV with cheese crackers and cheese WOW. oh yes.. CHEESE WOW.

.. thats about it. what else is there? oh right. kstew wears aritzia clothing. makes me vomit just thinking about how our merch is on that bitch. deep down i secretly want to be her.. only asian. and possibly drinking more and smokin the weed less.

i HELLA love san fran and cant wait to visit again =)

disco stick.

OH GAGA. you crazy woman you. "i love game. i love game"

i just ate pandesal. and nachos. both with cheese. gahhd damn that was a carb overload. so delicious.

is 17 degrees warm? it better be. anything has got to be better than this shit weather mother nature has bestowed on us vancouverites. san fran here i comeeeeeee!!

on a traveling point: to be in cannes. RIGHT NOW. would be the ultimate dream. film festival is going on. starlets everywhere. party center of France. clearly my head would be spinning with all of the action.

season finale week!! gahhd i love good tv. greys anatomy. gossip girl. OH MY!! both made me shed a tear. i want blair's aftergrad party at nate's outfit. so cute. so girly. and it was black. i want it. MAINTENANT.

which reminds me. i told my coworker to maintain. MAINTENANT. she looked at me quite confused. but thats okay. do your shit, crazy lady. and by shit i mean clean.

as of lately ive just been SO TIRED. drained physically and mentally. i dont know what it is but all i want to do as of lately is sleep in my bed... and maybe eat some chips and salsa.

i need an update of music in my laptop. suggestions?

is it bad to NOT care about things? had this conversation with someone. sometimes we get in a rut and look forward to basically nothing. why? because we're in a rut. theres nothing exciting in our lives and i guess we're so bored that we become numb that when something even half exciting enters our lives.. we arent excited?! does that make sense? anyways. im like that right now. everything is at a standstill. which is nice sometimes. but at the same time its like a "waste of life." hmmms..

need a manicure. and the cancer box. asap. almost on the maintenant level... but not quite there.

once again i am envious of those in the industry. one day, friends. one day.

suck it.

forever young.

happy birthday, rpattz, you gorgeous son of a bitch. you are my age now! HOORAH!! who would have thought he would celebrate at glowbal?? he frequented there before.. and then the vancouver sun decided to publish that ish. i was 2 blocks away from his party. watching youth group (their cover of forever young is seriously the best my ears have heard. ever.) a satisfying evening but would have been even better had i met my future husband. once again, my gut was screaming to just GO TO YALETOWN.. but no. my eyes hurt and i was craving pjs on the asap level.

what do old people do once theyve passed the clubbing stage? LOUNGE, BABYYY!!!! its coming to the new (and yet expected) part of aging.. no more clubbing. i still like it. i'll probably go out still. but i must say. that shits getting expensive and i have dreams that require cash money, ya diiig?? wine and dine.. chicka yeaaa.

oh! so the concert. pretty solid. the sweethearts were better than youth group only because 1) they were aesthetically appealing and 2) they were just more alive while performing. media club was a cute little venue. id totally go back. i people watched for a bit. i watched a guy get DEnied by his potential ladyfriend. dont buy a chick so many drinks. it screams desperation. oh. and a guy that smelt like earth sat beside me. he said something to me but i was in a state of shock that someone could smell like mud so i just smiled and nodded. at least i was polite. hotties to my left. hotties to my right. sorry zf that i zoned out at points of our conversation due to the abundance of eye candy.

its been settled!! sf late may. vegas early july. LA mid august. like i said, shits getting expensive.

the american dream: live in LA. work for a PR company that allows me to rub shoulders with the rich and famous. my friend wants to book bands for clubs and lounges.. vancouver, hurry up and become the hollywood north that i know you can be... papz at every corner tmz style and celebs running for their privacy. gahhd the fast life. the rich life. the famous life.. eeeeks. a girl can dream, right??

did i mention how happysad i am for not going to yaletown? ya.. i tried not to be crazy.. but who am i kidding? I AM. like ive said many times about myself, i have an OCD. its real and its deep, like chicken!

kate voegele? the virgins? the fray? OH MY!!!!! music is the weapon of the future, friends. remember that.

17 again.

i did not like zac efron. i loved highschool musical.. but i did not like him. he looked like a girl. he couldnt act. his hair bounced more than mine. to me.. he was not a man. he was a freak of nature!! OH BUT THEN I WATCHED 17AGAIN. and let me tell you.. that what i thought about this "teen heart throb" in the past is soooo out the door because let me tell you.. that that boy.. can wear his plaid shirts well. AHAHHAHA like shiiet buddy he is one good looking boy. i dont even care that hes prettier than me.. he is HOT. edward cullen WHO? (just kidding!! hahah!) oh ya, the movie was pretty dope as well. surprisingly.

benefits DENIED. how sad am i that i cant even go to the dentist for the next little while.

a customer dropped 500 bucks with me as if it was nothing. she then told me she got $1200 from the government. this is amazing because we are BOTH not students are just working fulltime yet somehow she got over a G and i had to pay 200 bucks!! ohh life. it really knows where to kick you.

ride or you die bitches. those are the people that matter. i gots mine do you gots yours?? think of it this way: theyre the people that will yell at someone in your defense. theyre the people that dont give a whowhaaat about your antics. theyre the people you can call up randomly and ask to do nothing and they WILL say yes because they know at the end of the night, it will be a good story. but most importantly, theyre the people that are there for you any hour, any time, no questions asked.. until they get there. bwahahah ive known this for years and it became more apparent when we threw a douchebag off the stage all because he gave roho a compliment. DONT. TOUCH. US. OR. WE'LL. PUNCH. YOU.

my shit is bejeweled. WITH RHINESTONES. ed hardy eat your heart out. bwhahaha

im waiting patiently for my 90210 season 3 and 4 box sets go on sale. and then imma pounce. like a tigre. dylan mckay where aaaaaaaare you!!

dilemma.

SO. i still want vacation. lots of vacation. BUT i want to go to europe next year. for a solid month. that will take up a lot of cash money no???

BUT i feel that i can allow one.. maybe two.. vacations this summer excluding the SF trip at the end of may. now the question is as ive always asked.. WHERE DO I GO.
- nacauili wants to go to vegas in july but im going already in sept
- i really miss the LA and noho area. sighhh..
- montreal and nyc were good to me last year.. and i would lovelovelove to go back to mtl just to party one more time on st catherines.. and l'opera on a sunday night hehe
- calgary for stampede has always been something fun to do plus id get to see my explore friends..
- chitown cuz i didnt really get the FULL experience.

.. suggest! suggest! suggest!! and if you want to come. HOLLA!!

orange juice is deliicous.

seriously tropicana oj is the shiet. sans pulp of course. but a little bit of pulp never hurt nobody! hehe

met taylor lautner this weekend while looking for an establishment that will serve me alcoholic beverages. no big deal or anything.. just like im not a crazy twilight fan. OHMYGODIMSOFREAKINGHAPPYITSRIDICULOUS.

its the end of the month = bills to pay = i remember once again that i need to save money and not spend it. what were the big purchases this month?? the dentist and QUESTCREW TICKETS, yayerssssssss!! so excited to see my love, d-trix.

watched wolverine on friday and i must say that it was pretty awesome. hugh jackmen's ass meets ryan renolyds abs. ahhh shiet. oh. the storyline was pretty good also. bwahahah!!

its so funny how men can look at women as pieces of meat and no one thinks anything of it BUT when a woman looks at a guy like that she loses lady points. i say eat this : After Centuries of men looking at my tits instead of my eyes and pinching my butt instead of shaking my hand, I think I have the right to stare at their asses with cheap, crude appreciation. amen.

a lot of people tell me in crazy and weird and psycho for actually enjoying the hunt for the twilight cast. and i must admit that it does seem a bit weird. but the funny thing is, is that there are people who actually WANT to do this with me outside my own social circle. its kinda cute. whats NOT cute is a twilight fanatic meet and greet. now that is just plain fuckedup.

a friend asked if "hunting" is related to me being unhappy with my life. thought about it some more.. and its not. ive just found a new hobby that doesnt consist of a dvd box set or an alcoholic beverage. i have an addictive personality. if i like something or someone it will be pretty obvious because i cant shut up about it. for the next few weeks.. its this =)

i need to gym. its gonna happen. im just waiting for a moment to strike. BWAHAHAHAHH sadness.

the rain can suck it.

was this good enough, zf? teeheehee. ps - cinqo de mayo tomorrow at celebs, holla at yo giiiiiiiiiiirl!!

jai ho!!

thanks pb for the song send. muwahahah its NOT on the cd? wait what? doll domination? oh shit you like it too? insert less man points now.

so i want to make a picnic basket. with sandwiches and potato salad. and juice boxes. and possibly some gummie bears. and maybe i'll throw in some spinach dip for kicks. the problem is 1) theres no one to eat that shit with and 2) i dont have a freaking day off until next week. so i guess my picnic will have to be.. at night?? hahaha

also, i want to have a bbq. friendsters want a bbq? i am offering the household provided that we dont repeat a last year with the po knocking on my door. thanks guys!

i only need to meet rpattz and i can quit this hunt for at least a solid month or something. its freaking draining, yo. but i am super happy that my friends are willing to go with me on the hunt!! from the random dinners to the stalking of the hotels to the driving across into the boonies hehehe and arent you glad you went, michelle? you saw the hotness that was taycob. bow chicka bow wowwwww

AMEN to warm weather. summer i see you coming near and oh man. i am SO READY. last year was a bust. i mean, i had one of the best summers of my life in mtl but seriously.. it was COLD THURR. not enough sunlight. i need my tan sans cancer box

i am sad to report that my oth season 3 disc 5 doesnt work anymore. THIS IS SO UPSETTING!!! it only has one of the best episodes on it (that being, the jimmy edwards shoots tree hill high episode)

speaking of tv.. i missed gossip girl. and heroes!! i mean, it was totally worth it.. it just sucks. thank goodness for the internet. seriously. what would i do without you.

it slides in. it slides out. MUWAHAHHA. i want that phone. i am going to GET that phone. i just need help getting a better plan. i suck at confrontation, for realskies.

i really really REALLY want another vacation to the list. possibly in july. possibly montreal and nyc again?? i really kinda just wanna go back to chi town... i wonder if its possible to do that too?? 10 day vacation is what im allowing myself for the month of july. i am open for suggestions. bwahahha

oooh oooh the american dream ooh ooh do you know what i mean..

im not sure how i feel about my new hair cut still. i like it sometimes.. and other times, i think it looks like a mop. HO HUMMM...

OH! i also want ice cream. and perhaps some sushi town. AHEMAHEM core ladies, make it happen.

ps - if you were at yote on saturday and witnessed the drunkness that was moi.. i do apologize. never again.. or well.. until QUEST, BABYYY!!!!

thats all. its time to make due of the rest of my "weekend." 5 days of wrk here i come... =(

after months of searching..

i am one freaking happy camper. went to the 100 monkeys concert the other night. i never wait for anything but THIS CONCERT i waited outside. in the cold. FOR THREE HOURS. ya. im that crazy. but it was all worth it! the band was actually really good.. and extremely good looking. AHAHHAHA!!! i fell in love with the bass player. ooh oww owww!! good music with good company. that was the name of the game. and then... we have.. THIS:



MET MY NUMBER TWO!!! yayy!! who is slowly becoming my number one because he can 1) sing 2) play multiple instruments 3) has a really hot accent 4) is super polite - he stood out there forever to meet his fans (awww!!)

anyways, that is all. life is good right now... aside from the fact im still contemplating what my next step in job is to be.. HMMM.. thoughts??

food for thought: The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past. And recognize that every day won't be sunny, and when you find yourself lost in the darkness and despair remember it's only in the black of night you see the stars. And those stars will lead you back home. So don't be afraid to make mistakes, or stumble and fall, cause most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you wish for. Maybe you'll get more than you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you. The road is long and in the end, the journey is the destination

blame it.

quite the weekend. blame it on the alcohol for realskies. friday night = fabric!! though i really really REALLY do not like that place, i was there 1) for lings bday cuz i bailed on celebs and 2) chelsea wouldnt have it any other way. anyways. so the night started with miss sam lopez picking my ass up at the household. drinks in hand and conversations about the PI and the next thing you know we're figuring out where to park. fast forward sparksnotes version of the clubscene: rounds after rounds, mardi gras beads (pretty sure rob made me caress his chest one too many times. SICK), more drinks, and some dancing inbetween. after the club was the walk back to the car. OH BUT WAIT MY FRIENDS DIDNT GO BACK TO THE CAR. i somehow ended up walking down gastown alone on the phone with sam lopez looking for her. OH RIGHT. we need food. no one tells me the plans. its a good thing i wasnt too drunk to dial a phone. bwahaha.

next day at 11am my batch of ugly calls me. im incredibly hungover. but all in the name of twilight i got up, showered, and was out the door for the hunt. MY PRAYERS WERE ANSWERED. though i didnt see the gold at the end of the rainbow (that being rpattz and jackson) i did however see a few of the cast members!!
sighting 1 i am an idiot and didnt do proper research. saw a wolf while eating a japadog. saw the wolf. hesitated. got verification by other twilight fans. roho stuffs half of her hot dog in her mouth and we are speed walking LFA style to catch up to him. follow him all the way to yaletown (this is no 5min walk. this is a very long walk/run) we finally catch up to him. OH BUT WAIT. i dont know his name. we think alex? so i go up to him and ask if hes alex NOT THINKING a follow up question for when he said no. later in the day i found out it wasnt alex but it was chaske spencer
i am a dumbass.

sighting 2 me and roho are sitting outside the hotel not where the rest of the ppl are. we are hardcore and sit right outside the lobby doors, yo! so we pass the time by watching the lobby boys break into a company car, watching the twihards, and talking about our weddings when lo and behold i see a hot guy. he had flawless skin and was in a rush to get into the car that was parked in front of where we were sitting. he looked kind of familiar. OH SHIT THATS KELLAN LUTZ. as much time as it took me to realize i see the tween run and scream "KELLAAAAAAAAAAN!!" shit man. i thought i was crazy. OH NO. i am normal. these girls make vancouver people look like idiots. anyways, he goes into his car and is on his way.. lum di dum dum. i was never a fan of him til that moment. he is ridiculously good looking.

sighting 3 i am back on my bench. and am now accompanied by six other people. OH JOY. i see the character, victoria speed walk into the hotel. i wait patiently because we all know she is gonna have to head out eventually. she runs out. shes running late somewhere but is so nice and still took photos. i jumped into one and BAM. got my photo opp. thanks roho for taking my bag as i threw it on you. AHAHHA afterwards we were kindly asked to leave the premises of the hotel. I DONT CURR LIFE IS 60% COMPLETE NOW.

oh! on a pseudo good note. thanks to miss fu went to the cullen house!! its a pretty dope set. didnt see any celebs but still pretty awesome. christy lopez almost had a heart attack when she saw the bright lights. almost as freaky as the teenage twihards. easy kiddo, we dont want to scare them away hahaha.

FUCK LIFE RIGHT NOW THOUGH because robert is at the 100 monkeys concert. right now. and im here. blogging about life. damnit. FUCK LIFE, as linda would say. i just want to give him a hug so i can know first hand that he smells divine... kind of crazy? kind of awesome!

anyways, aside from twilight because i kinda do have a life, i had AYCE with the BP and it was good. who would have thought 3 small asian girls could eat enough for a small family. we WADDLED, not walked, outside of the restaurant and had to walk it off. since we were downtown of course i requested that we did a little walk by the hotel. you know.. just in case. no such luck. all i have to say is that we are fat kids and fat kids unite! at the table we were so full that all of our eyes were half open and it got to the point that we werent even eating. at one point zf had noodles in her mouth.. but only halfway. OH LORD. its okay. blame it on the alcohol. went home afterwards to do some laundry. OH THE LAUNDRY. its been a couple months. thats gross. gross cuz i havent done it in a couple months and gross that i have that much clothing. SIICK.

i am "doubly" better than all of you bitches. roho said so. bwahahaha. oh. and if you cant eat it then you might as well play with it.. im referring to food, of course.

okay. thats all. the cast leaves this week. sadface indeed. what will i do now with my days/evenings off? i guess figure out what you suckkas are doing.. and then write about it.. ya. that sounds pretty good =P

not gonna lie...

I AM NOT EMO.
I AM NOT CRAZY.

.. had a 20 min conversation at work basically spewing my guts about twilight and how i need to go hunt for them (its night time! THEYRE COMING OUT SOON!) and then proceed to discuss how my friends bf has 0% body fat. its true. HE IS ROCK SOLID. its like when i hug him im pushing up against a wall and not a person. it hurt the muhshugs, ya dig??

.. had another conversation about how this blog is apparently emo. but im not emo. IM NOT EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE. but you know how you have those days where everything you do makes you seem like youre emo and yet youre not? YA THATS ME. im not emo. im fine. i can listen to sad songs and still be happy. i can write about the unfortunate events of people and still be completely content with myself. oh yes. its the truth.

oh woe is me that i cannot find the cast. SOMEONE HELP ME FIND MY LOVE. bwahhaah jkjk. at this point its just for the love of the game ive developed for myself. will i cry/scream like a school girl if i meet them/ see them?? probably not. i would like to at least have a 2min convo about the weather. AHHAHA BUT I NEED TO FIND THEM FOR THIS TO HAPPEN. you all know.. that if you help me.. i will finally shut the eff up about it and will move on to GOSSIP. im totally behind on my gossip because im so preoccupied with finding the cast. EFF MY LIFE.

in short, HELP ME FIND THE CAST = SAVE YOUR SANITY.