untitled.

cause you know life is what we make it and a
chance is like a picture, it’d be nice if you just take it.





choice song of 2010. BLEHH!!!

sunshine.

sometimes i dont know why i defend you.
sometimes i forget why i like you.
sometimes i dont want to be nice.
sometimes it feels like im being taken advantage of.
sometimes i miss you.
sometimes i give people the benefit of the doubt.
sometimes i dont give two shits.

know that im here for you.
know that you can trust me with anything but i cant trust you.
know that despite everything i still care.
know that i will always defend you.
know that i will put others before myself.
know that there are things refuse to talk about.
know that im not always happy even while smiling.

some people, i tell ya...

love & other drugs.

There's a lot I don't understand about life. You meet thousands of people, and then you meet one person, and your life is changed forever.

lucky.

im addicted to awkward moments.

nothing on you.

why do people cheat?

in all honesty, i try my best not to judge people when i discover that they have. I mean, everyone makes mistakes. Everyone slips up every now and then. But im curious to know the WHY. what was the driving force that brought a person to make the decision to be unfaithful to their spouse they are currently with? it's mind boggling. I understand that when youre in a relationship you kind of drift into outer space and wonder hmmm what else is out there. BUT COME ON.

relationship = loyalty and trust. without both you have NOTHING.

someone please answer me this. because i am curious to know why people contemplate the "what else" when they already have, in theory, what they want??

gravity.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down

blehh!!

PornStar.

Have a great time, pour yourself a shot girl
Chase it with a lime, now you feeling like a hot girl

this is what everyone needs to understand: once youve dealt with the drama.. YOU WILL LAUGH at the drama. im slowly starting to laugh again.. slowly. but. like classic maria, i will dwell on the drama until it consumes my life before i laugh about it. give me two more weeks, friends. im working on it.

my guy friends are the best. i had some bromance this week on two seperate occasions and not gonna lie.. it was needed. i consider this weekend as part of my ongoing field study of the male species. in order to really understand the man, one has to be one of the guys. i tuned out some of the conversation because tbh all the talk about basketball is boring.

enclosed.. my findings:

- guys have feelings. wait, WHAT?!?!? ya. apparently they do!
- guys have trouble putting into words their feelings but once they do, its actually pretty dope
- guys change the topic.. but not quickly enough. girls are far more ADD. hence why i check in and out of convo topics.
- guys dont wait for each other to speak.. they speak over each other! --- rude!!
- guys talk about sex. a lot. yes this is obvious and YES its gross. and kind of awesome.
- when talking about girls, guys are BRUTALLY honest. ladies, WATCH YOURSELF.
- not all guys are assholes. some of them actually do things with the best intentions.
- guys really think girls are crazy. like really.
- guys put their cellphones on the table - YES!!!!!!!!!!!
- guys need girls just as much as girls need guys. not just in relationships. but just to understand the other side.

emphasis on the FEELINGS. funny that. didnt know there were guys that actually feel bad when they screw over a girl. HMMMMMMMMM....

FYI: i am watching harry potter. midnight showing. WHOS DOWN!!!!!!!!!

for your listening pleasure..

famous girl.

"we judge ourselves by our intentions and others by their actions" #realtalk

if there is anything that my PR course has taught me thus far it is this: act first. comment later. talk is cheap.

apply this to RL. if we say we're going to do something we have to do it. but what if we dont? well congrats you have just lost credibility and are now viewed as useless to your publics.

RL scenario 1: your bf says hes going to take you out on a date tomorrow night. one week later still no date?! good job, bf! you have disappointed the woman. and we all know what happens when the lady is unhappy right? ya. you know whats up.

RL scenario 2: friend says they will plan something. its been months and they still havent seen each other. friend doubts friendship and now wonders why they even bother.

RL scenario 3: how many times have you said to an old friend, "we should hang out sometime!" and then not follow through? classic.

the way i see it #5903
people have good intentions. they dont mean to hurt others' feelings. we try our best to cater to the masses. but at the end of the day we have to remember that in order to stay credible we must:
1) never lie
2) state the facts properly
3) (if we are at fault) be empathetic

i challenge you, friends to work on your credibility. i will do the same. and who knows? maybe, just maybe.. we wont be so angry/frustrated/confused with each other as much =)

apologize.

a day in the life of nanay and lola...
C: im not a bitch, right?=
M: yes you are. but thats why i like you
#realtalk

lovelovelove.

apparently i have a cute walk. a customer commented on my walk. i didnt hear her.. but my DM did. i am now paranoid when walking ANYWHERE. i walk slow imo.

only at my work establishment...
D: are you offended when i call you cute?
M: id rather be called cute than a shark. im proud that im not a shark.
#realtalk

i only have time for people who are awesome. are you awesome? methinks not.

when i see this photo i think "attack!!!!"

superhuman.

i miss my friends. all of them.

i want my ear piercings to quit being such a batch of ugly and finally be cool.

it would be nice to have my tattoo before NYE.

team awesome is BACK IN ACTION...
M: so i cant party for the next few weekends. i have school.
J: wait. what? but D is leaving lamplighter.
M: oh no!
J: we need to get as much lamp as we can!!
M: youre right! ok lets party.
... sometimes, i really am that easy.

this has been an ongoing discussion with two different people. open up for debate: the act of giving: genuine? or are we expecting something in return?

but lets be real. for the next month... in THEORY.. i need to hermit it up. studz with budz? yes. it is a MUST of the MSNs.

korean body wave? methinks yes. my hair needs more BOUNCE

sometimes, i just want to punch people in the face. today was one of what i feel will be string of angry days.

starbucks is promoting xmas far too early. we JUST finished hween. give me 2wks. i still have candy that needs to be eaten!!

i need a reason to wear my kenya. SOMEONE GIVE ME A REASON TO WEAR MY KENYA, DAMNIT!!!!

case of the ex. oh geez. that was a deal breaker FOR SURE.

attn harry potter fans: i would like to invite someone.. anyone really.. to go to seattle for the HP exhibit. YES i am a geek and YES i am proud of it. hey, at least i didnt go to twicon?!! (although i was tempted...)

PostScript: THEY ARE BACK. and joseph gorden levitt is in town. clearly we all know what this means: hunting season, wheeeeeeeeeee =)=)=)

cry me a river.

sometimes imu...

ive purposely added more things to my plate to ensure that i dont have a quiet moment by myself to THINK. and it worked for a little bit. except today. i dont know why today was different but it was. for the first time in maybe two weeks i didnt want to punch myself for letting you get under my skin. for the first time in two weeks i was sad that we arent friends.

... just sayin. nbd or anything.

The Roof.

ser·en·dip·i·ty

– noun

1. an aptitude for making desirable discoveries by accident.

2. good fortune

— n

the faculty of making fortunate discoveries by accident

serendipity

1754 (but rare before 20c.), coined by Horace Walpole (1717-92) in a letter to Mann (dated Jan. 28); he said he formed it from the Persian fairy tale "The Three Princes of Serendip," whose heroes "were always making discoveries, by accidents and sagacity, of things they were not in quest of." The name is from Serendip, an old name for Ceylon (modern Sri Lanka), from Arabic Sarandib, from Skt. Simhaladvipa "Dwelling-Place-of-Lions Island." Serendipitous formed c.1950.

... soon to be INKED. whatupppp!!!!

lose my breath.

independent women, whatupppp!!!



this is officially my feel good song of the week.

D.O.A

and so the vicious cycle starts up again...

- you dont like me but you think im "cute"
- you admit to being a liar and to have lied to me before
- you straight up told me to listen to my friends and stop talking to you
- you call me a "nice kid" in the most patronizing way possible
- im pretty sure you make fun of me with your friends (because apparently guy talk equates to being douchebags)
- youre proud to be an asshole
- youve said countless times that youre not going to change
- you only talk to me when its convenient for you (ie: walking home alone and drunk)

so wait. let me understand. after all this.. i am STILL here?! oh no. it cannot be. oh. BUT IT IS. i am embarrassed to say.. that i have become.. THAT GIRL.

just aint gonna work out.

current mood: lost

fave song atm: unthinkable - akeys and drake.

thoughts: i miss you. toronto in 20. where did you go. why. i thought you wanted us to be friends. october is my favorite month. where am i. im not sorry. you dont deserve my time. bills bills bills. respect is earned. otp. leave me alone. trust. drink some. i hate liars. never say never. can i forgive. time to start over. its getting colder at night. so tired. should we be friends. i dont think youre an asshole. i spend too much money. dismissed. what do i want.

POA: smile.

replacement girl.

"ted mosby, I'm going to teach you how to live..."- Barney, HIMYM

let me drop some knowledge on you:

once upon a time in a suburb far far away from vancouver there were a group of girls having an intellectual conversation about the male species....

J: *talking about the guy she is currently swooning over* hes so awesome.
M: boys suck
S: ya! theyre only good for two things
M: ya! *raises index finger in the air* sex and..
(silence)
M: .. and i dont know what the other one is.
(laughter)

.fin.

its britney, bitch.

i have been anticipating this day since the buzz was in the air during the summer: GLEE: BRITNEY SPEARS EPISODE.

i must say, that although it wasnt my fave episode thus far, it was a pretty solid effort.

the likes:
- "the only exception" cover
- britney DANCING (damn, Britney S. Pears can dance!)
- santana "yay"-ing. if you know me.. you would understand that i "yay" at least once a day.
- finn being loyal. like a dog.
- uncle jesse has arrived. ye yeaaa!!!

the dislikes:
- the actual britney cameo - WHY.
- bum sweat. was it that necessary to provide me with visual aid?
- the absence of puck's arms and mike jang's abs
- the "toxic" performance.

i understand that britney is either associated with POP ICON or TRAIN WRECK but to have the kids get into a "sex riot" over her songs was a bit much. what are you trying to tell me? that britney spears' PG13 lyrics make teenagers want to jump each others' bones? methinks not.

BRITNEY SPEARS: FRIEND OR FOE? YOU DECIDE.

my secret love.

my favorite book. its no literary classic or on oprah's favorite books list. but every time i read this book i get the butterflies."someone like you" by Sarah Dessen. props to jenn for the recommendation.. 10 years ago?! haha


They made a movie out of it with Mandy Moore called "How to Deal." EPIC. FAIL.


all i have to say: the jedi mind trick never fails. blehh!!

killing me softly.

word to the wise, girlfriends:

Having feelings for someone isn't worth it, unless they make you feel special, irreplaceable, and beautiful.

so i was going through the tweets of the day and came across this lovely quote. funny how it ties in with my conversation with my homegirl, ZF, earlier this evening. does this not SPEAK TO THE FEMALE NATION? because i think it does. its the oldest story in the book. we've all fallen into this crazy before. the crazy thats in our head when we think "somethings there" when with a guy but really.. theres not. really, we're just looking for that feeling of being swept off our feet and think we can find it in the next douchebag that comes our way.

the jokes on us really. we need to understand that guys are just that.. guys. nothing more. nothing less.

#realtalk.

just the way you are.

... REMIXED.

this song is already so cute to begin with.. and then it gets remixed. YES!!!!

First rule, never let em change you. Rule two, do you to the fullest

realtalk.

around the way girl.

Blair: I don't love you anymore. But it takes more than even you to destroy aBlair Waldorf.

Chuck: Your world would be easier if I didn't come back.

Blair: That's true. But it wouldn't be my world without you in it.


gossip girl. season4. ep2.


insert teenage girl laughter...

pause for dramatic effect..



... deuces.

bad romance.

j'ai ton amour et je veux ton revenge. j'ai ton amour i dont wanna be friends..


... im waiting for the other shoe to drop.

dear other shoe:

DROP ALREADY.


kthxbye.

daydreamin.

my family.. as much as i love them.. will judge everyone, especially their own. this past weekend i went to banff for my cousin ed's wedding and may i just say.. that i spent a good couple of days mentally preparing myself for what was to come. WOE IS ME.


insert anxiety attack.


what outfits am i bringing? i need multiple outfits throught the entire weekend because i cant be caught dead wearing the same thing twice this weekend!! what kind of make up am i going to wear? what forms of bling should i carry? is my hair going to an up do or am i going to leave it down? clutch or sling? omg! I NEED SHOES!!! heels only because lord knows i need all the height i can get. oh dear, my arms have gotten bigger... this calls for last minute gym sesh. oh no they dont know about my piercings. do i hide them or wear them proudly?


like i said, love my family but DAMN we gotta break out our A game when we're around the lolas. pshh i dont care if you are speaking about me stealthly in tagalog. I UNDERSTAAAAND YOU EITHER WAY!!!!! anyways, long story short. i survived. as per usual, i come out unscathed.


moral of the story: despite the anxiety attacks, apart from the fact that sometimes they may break my spirit a little, seeing past the notion that YES i am emotionally scarred for lyphe.. they most certainly mean well AND have taught my valuable life lessons.


PAR EXAMPLE:

- appearances, no matter what people say, ARE IMPORTANT. you can argue the latter but at the end of the day, my lola knows. shes got a lifetime of knowledge after all. look good = feel good = biiiiiiiiig profit.


i am a firm believer that we cant judge a book by its cover. HOWEVER. if that cover is not at least a little bit eye catching, then chances are, it wont be open and therefore wont be read. sadface.


and that my friends.. is the ugly truth <3

PostScript
love me like youll never see me again. akeys said it best.

lesson learned.

scenario: at a friends house with her dogs on the couch. the dog wants to play with something on the floor. but the way hes positioned he will fall if he tries to get the item. we tell the dog to stop. dog doesnt listen and tries to get the object. dog falls.

.. girls are like dogs. no matter how many times we're told to stop our foolish behaviour, chances are.. we're still gonna do it. and we're gonna fall. and fall. and FALL AGAIN.

BUT.

at some point. when we've fallen enough, it'll click in our heads like a light bulb. HALLELUJAH. we learned.

end scene.

the writing's on the wall.

1) Thou shall not hate.
2) Thou shall pay bills.
3) Thou shall confess.
4) Thou shall not bug.
5) Thou shall not give in to temptation.
6) Thou shall not think you got it like that.
7) Thou shall not leave me wondering.
8) Thou shall know when he's got to go.
9) Thou shall move on to the next.

10) Thou shall get your party on.
11) Thou shall say my name.
12) Thou shall know she can't love you.
13) If thou can wait, then thou shall stay.
14) Thou shall cherish life.

freeze.

umm LE FUCK?!

rage. TAKE IT. AND GO.
i need to peace it, vancouver. you are being one hell of a female dog to me these days.
i want to go somewhere where i can just chill with my homies and forget about work, drama, and futures.
i would do just about anything to go back to this time last year when i couldnt be bothered with anyone who would boggle my mind so much.

.. im craving a slurpee from petrocan =)

halo.

im only human and thats my saving grace =)

girls make mistakes. we're entitled to do so. but WHY do we insist on making the same mistake multiple times. gahh. i complain about everything and anything that's in my head and yet i still refuse to do something about it. WHY.

thank you, said person, for not only proving me wrong but proving EVERYONE ELSE right.

differences.

"If she's amazing, she won't be easy. If she's easy, she wont be amazing. If she's worth it, you won't give up. If you give up, you're not worthy."

i find it absolutely hilarious when guys pick and choose to run for the hos in this town. its kind of like.. why have coke when i can have presidents choice cola? i mean.. coke is an all around good brand. it is well established and is credible. coke is "the real thing." but.. president's choice is just as good right? i mean. they taste the same. they provide the same service in the sense that theyre both fizzy and delightful drinks. so what's the difference? oh. right. president's choice is CHEAP. and at the end of the day.. you get what you pay for.

.. and people wonder why i'm such a brand whore.

unpredictable.

im freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. insert deep sighs of relief. YES. i may have no idea what i want from life but i am slowly understanding what i dont want.

.. mind you, i have a nasty habit of always changing my mind. vomit.

untitled.

"I wish someone would tell me something incredibly profound. I wish my heart would beat beat beat in time with theirs and things I want to say wouldn’t get caught in my throat like my hair gets caught in my fingers and ties itself into knots. I wish the voice in my head didn’t say the things it does, because of all the people I can trust in the world I shouldn’t be one of them. That’s why I listen to music louder than the sounds of the late-night television programs like poker competitions and bad films starring bad actors. And in the middle of the cacophony of sounds the only thoughts I can hear are the singer’s, the whisperer’s, the poet’s, infinitely better and wiser. Wiser even than the stars. I bet they don’t trust themselves either. I bet lots of people don’t when they’ve fallen down the rabbit hole and felt a heartbreak or three. Boys didn’t break my heart you know, I did. I break it all the time. I’m breaking it right now and I don’t even know why."

what is the point in making a decision or even saying it outloud well knowing that it wont change anything. RIDDLE ME THIS. why am i investing time with someone who wont invest any time with me?! RIDDLE. ME. THAT.

combat baby take deux.

this time tomorrow i have every intention of erasing all the bad choices i made the last couple of months. it starts with cutting the clutter.

i really dont like crying at random hours of the day. maybe its that time of the month. no wait. ive been doing for months now. hate how people have a crazy affect on me. i get knocked on it often: i care too much. which i thought was an admirable quality. and it is. but not when it burns a hole so deep that i can almost feel my bones crack. vivid. woah.

the way i see it #5849 i will always care about a person no matter how much theyve hurt me or how many times theyve made me cry.. with the exception of one person. said person can go to hell and take his ugly nammer gf with him. jerk =)

put it in a love song

i love when i get a weekend day as one of my days off. ohh the perks of working the glorious life that is a retail employee.. every day off is considered a "weekend." friday, saturday, and sunday?! pshh. those are just regular days in my books. but to the rest of the world, those three days are WEEKEND. and when im blessed to get either of these days off, i try to maximize it. ergo.. my saturday.

step one: dim sum lunch with exgappers. oh how ive missed you so. i especially love the content of our rendezvous. the conversations with old friends are always so random. like you do the whole omg i miss you havent seen you in so long hows school are guys in your life when do you graduate. and then you transition to what i call, "real talk" that being the stuff that doesnt necessarily have an auto answer. our convo went to a business lunch type setting where i tried to recruit baby dee to aritzia. im just saying.. the option is THERE and they are GOOD PEOPLE to calling each other bitches across the lunch table. because apparently the only reason why nida likes me is because im a bitch. what you consider bitchy i call "being real." with that said, we will teach baby lyriq the ways of her aunties - "YOU WILL LEARN!" and i dont know why people does this but it seems that whenever theres a baby at the table and they have a baby too they feel the need to introduce them. wtf? you gonna set a play date for next week? oh man. it was really weird and kind of awkward. i felt old. like hello family luncheon type feel. and how come that 5yr old chinese kid didnt want to talk to us! what a hater. sun sui wah is a classy place for classy people who want dim sum. they dont do the carts but they have MICROPHONES.

step two: AVATAR!!! thank you carlo for watching this movie with me!! ok. so you think that after a movie has been out for a while the theatre wouldnt be so jam packed right? well apparently for this movie the rules do not apply. NO SIR. we had to sit at the front!! my eyes were going crazy from all the visual stimulation. 3D. close up. OH MAN. insert headache now. i honestly felt like this movie could have been divided into three movies in itself. but thats just what i think. i found out it was carlo's second time being in metrotown. second time. after living here for years. thats CRAZY. haha!! so of course there had to be a tour.. but i dont even know metro that well so aimless walking is always a good option to kill time before the well anticipated pac fight. carlo, i will not lie to you.. i kinda wanted to ride the train. muwahah!! but only to say that i did. twas good catch up with a friend that i havent seen in years. because i really dont remember the last time i saw him... am still thinking. oh and ps - im still looking for an ugly baby.

step three: pac fight at zfs. i gave her her xmas/bday present. introducing.. wolfgang, a plastic wolf that when plugged in his eyes light up. YUUUP!!. whatever my baby wants, she gets. BAHAHA!! best moment of the night had to be when zf's mom pet the present. YES. so epic. that is why i love her. because shes dope like no joke. maaaaaaaan.i love that house. every time i go there it reminds me of all the times i spent passed out on the couch or having mom make us samosas at 3am. oh the goodtimes. anyways, pacfight sucked. waste of energy for tito manny imo. HE IS MY FUTURE CONGRESS. chad has a boy crush on him. i swear his smile was from ear to ear every time tito manny was on the screen. what a weirdo. eurotrip? partially? am still pending.

STEP FOUR: fuck men i just wanna dance. went out with the girls because we are SINGLE and its SATURDAY. need i say more? started off at guu because guu is the shit. and let me just say, that i ate for all of us girls. fat kids unite for reals. but i paid for it dearly when i could barely walk out the door. onwards to lamplighter. now let me just say that i love lamp. lamplighter is actually a nice spot. its casual its easy its like cambie and the foggy DONT in a better atmosphere. its especially nice if you want your ego boosted ten fold. thanks jess for the intro. i love your friend, can i meet someone JUST LIKE HIM and looks JUST LIKE HIM. yes. get on that. i dont know though.. there was a lot of touch dancing. which i havent been a fan of since i turned legal. like.. what is the appeal? sometimes dont you just want to DANCE? like real dance. like without 'backing it up' as they like to say. maybe its just not my steez. maybe im crazy. all i know is, is that if youre gonna dance up on a guy try to move your bag AWAY from my head. bitch wondered why i just stared at her with death eyes. oh yes i enjoy being a third wheel in your private dance party. the eff? back up off my spaaaaaaaaace!!! spring forward clock change was the death of me. LAME.

so what is the point of this? what is the moral of the story? we gotta remember to relax sometimes. carlo gave it to me strait. theres plenty of time to sleep when im dead. in other words, we are at an age where YES we have our responsibilities but at the same time, we gotta just enjoy our day! my saturday was a bit crazy on the expenses to say the least but it was worth it. why? because i spent it with good people and we had a good time and at the end of the day, its those little things that matter the most. proof pudding: i smiled the entire time i wrote this =)

PREACH!!

guardian angel.

do you ever have those days when youre hanging out or talking to someone and as they go on about whatever the eff youre talking about you think to yourself, "why the HECK am i even involving myself with you." cuz i do. and its weird. not because thats a weird thought. but because its happening a little too often. especially these last few weeks. ho humm...

i miss the olympics. post olympic depression. i need something to do. i need a reason to be drunk at three in the afternoon. i need to see the red white and black surround the streets of robson and granville. oh were the days when id receive the txt msgs and phone calls to go downtown. what for? OLYMPIC MADNESS, THATS WHAT!! i feel lost.

i have a slight love for hockey. this is kind of a huge deal. my cousins can understand that this is simply unnatural. i was the girl that would say "what quarter is this?" when trying to watch a game. yuup. but now theres a purpose. and his name is sid crosby. hes cute. not taylor pyatt cute. but still cute. OH! and theres another one too.. but i forget his name. needless to say, i watch hockey now with the intention of potentially discovering some eye candy. everyone has their motives this just happens to be mine. judge all you want. at least i can say there are three periods in a game now. next on the list: icing.

alice in wonderland. avatar. and remember me. YES. someone watch this crap with me. pleaaaaaase. before i start crying. the first two need to be in 3D.

so for lent i tried to give up swearing. that didnt work out too well. especially after a hard day at work. so i gave up something new: fries. i think i can do it. just one month.. this ones much more probable than last years alcohol try. i lasted i think two weeks? and thats with the whole "sundays the day of rest" so i could drink sunday at 12am at the bar. how lame.

back to school. and im loving it. i dont know what it is. maybe its my classmates. or maybe its the environment. no. its definetly having the satisfaction of knowing that im learning something that i love and will pursue in the future. that didnt take long at all. haha

ryan leslie is life. his new album is seriously on repeat at work. and when i get home. oh man. the lyrics. the beats. his voice. my faves are "guardian angel" and "i choose you." but really, i like them all. i just prefer these two cuz they slow my mind down. like way down.

POP OPERA THIS SATURDAY. happy belated birthday to me. it really didnt feel right not celebrating. people gave me weird looks when i said i wasnt gonna celebrate. and you know what? they were right. the olympics kinda made it hard to set something up hence why its this weekend. come one. come all =)

the eclipse movie trailer sucked balls hardcore. its my fave book in the entire series. david slade, you better not disappoint.

telephone.

i am really really happy right now. why? because the grammy's were on aka my fave award show next to the AMAs. and what makes me even more happier? TSWIFT WON ALBUM OF THE YEAR!! woopwoop!!

performances: all very great. except pinks. because i dont like her in general. i find her voice annoying. and the whole ooh look at me im all acrobatic and shit is kinda weird. and didnt she KIND OF do something similar last year? me thinks yes. i havent quite decided which performance i enjoyed more. beyonce's cover of "you ought to know" or drake/eminem/lilwayne's rap performance. fuck you, cbs for censoring so much of their performance. me and my dad were yelling at the tv. well, it was more of me yelling at my dad, "OMG WHAT IS GOING ON CHANGE THE CHANNEL!!"

i got my haircut over the weekend. felt so good. mmm pretty hair!!

oh you know what else i got? a sweet smokers cough that was so deep i not only had a nice asthma attack in the middle of the night, but hurt my lungs! it still hurts when i inhale deeply. i cant even walk up some stairs without wheezing right now. i hate being sick!!! and eff my weak lungs. how does one make these organs stronger?? hmmm...

can someone please tell me why the olympic art is so ugly and yet kind of fascinating? i like the tree things.. sort of.

my pvr failed to tape vampire diaries and greys. YES BATCH. you may proceed to tell me in great detail what i missed last week.

speaking of television. i need entourage in my life again. watched season 3A last night. THEY FIRED ARI? oh sweet merciful jeebus say it aint so!! im telling you. after watching this show my swear word count has increased exponentially. seriously. every other word. its not good for my grammar.

i smelt coconuts just now. and i started to freak out. and then i remembered my conditioner is coconut scented. bwahaha. im so funny sometimes. looking around my room for a coconut candle or something only to find out it was my hair.

what would make my world right now? a musical performance that included the female greats of the present: gaga, beyonce, and tswift. now wouldnt THAT be an epic performance? heck yes.

k. im feeling stuffed up. its time for my meds.

te amo.

oh riri. sometimes your cd makes me sad. and then i remember this is the "blue period" of every artist. Picasso had one. you shall too.

i will take this opportunity to express my anger towards rogers and my phone. daaaaamnit rogers and your problems with smart phones!! damn you and your lack of internet due to system upgrades!! and damn me for not knowing how to actually install these freaking upgrades!! ohso unhappy.

you know what else makes me angry? angry customers. oh. im sorry that im the only one on the floor and there are 4394 customers in the room and you clearly see that im trying to help everyone and give me evil glares as a signal for me to check on you. umm HI. im pretty sure you know where that shirt is and im pretty sure you can get it yourself if you absolutely need it right this instant. I AM ONLY ONE PERSON!! grahh. oh. and dont tell my manager to get off the phone and process your return. excuuuuuuuuse you. she is doing the best she can!! it is called multitasking. learn it. live it. love it.

i am in one bitch ass mood these days. early signs of the monthly visitor. rage anger rage.

i watched the movie "hes just not that into you" again. so smart. reminds me that there are NO signs and if a guy really wants to ask you out HE WILL. its that simple. funny story. my friend alyssa reminded me that its almost singles awareness day aka valentines and i said, "oh right! i totally forgot!... fuck love!!" end scene.

coachella? i want too. or i can just save up for other things. or pay my bills.

i really want to walk around downtown and see all the pretty olympic decorations before shit hits the fan and wont wanna be in the area ever. maaan!! can you believe the olympics are almost here? am kinda excited. am kinda wtf. its already a bitch and a half to get downtown for the burbs. and now i have to compete with foreigners for a seat on the skytrain? maaaaaaaan.

i forgot how much fun it is to drunk text. thanks people for participating in my fun on saturday night. you were all good entertainment.

ENTOURAGE MARATHON!!!!! need i say more? ive been looking forward to this day since my sister failed to take home season three. ya, i said it. you FAIL. almost as badly as my htc. ohhhhhhh man.

the end.

anything.

welcome 2010!!! five days in and its not too shabby. who am i kidding? ive been working strait. woop woop weekend though!! insert sentimental moments: work just isnt the same without all those seasonal help. dare i say it.. i miss them? all of them? (well.. maybe not all of them) but in general i actually do. but WHY? more often than not im the one my managers look at when they lecture how we gotta be nice to them. coughcough im sorry im a bitch. but no! this year i was nice! because they didnt suck! AAAAAAAAAMEN. and now i miss them. oh man. what to do what to do...

entourage really is the male sex and the city. only BETTER. ya i said it. the lifestyle and 'biz' that they all have is what i dream about doing one day ahhh!!! but less swear words. they cuss like truckers. thats a bit excessive. and i cant stop staring at adrien grenier. like DAMN. i think its the hair. aida says its the eyes.. but no. its the hair.

is it bad to want to drink on a constant basis?? hmm... all in moderation right? so long as im not always trashed right? i dont know anymore. all i know is i want to party and drink again. like now. like tunnel? no. MARKDOWN PARTY TOMORROW AT 008. ohhhhhhhhh man. why i volunteer my evenings to work i still dont understand.

one two three and to the four. am listening to the brown sugar soundtrack. when did you fall in love with hip hop? i still dont know.

what are your new years resolutions? mine would be to make sure i do something with these 365 days. 2009 was a joke of a year to me because i didnt do anything with it. i hardly vacationed. all i did was work. and for what? my bank account is hardly admirable so saving cant be it. i wasted soo much time doing nothing so im determined to do SOMETHING with 2010. aaaaamen.

who would have thought it cost eighty dollah to clean up a duvet. WHAT THE FUCK ASIAN LADY YOUS CRAAAAAAAAAAAZY... but understandable. she took one look at the mess and cringed. i threw up in my mouth a little bit too. whatever. it had to be done. lose lose i guess.

so i lost my camera on new years. im starting to kinda freak out because it has to be somewhere in my house! im just not looking hard enough i guess. like its in my house. no doubts. but seriously. i only SORTA know when the last time i had it. that and my cell phone. why did you let me even try to hold that shit. laaaaaaame.

on that note, new years was fucking awesome. thanks to all who attended. the good, the bad, and the ugly.. it was all worth it. so give yourselves a pat on the back for an excellent ring into the new year.

i start school next week. i start school NEXT WEEK? i start SCHOOL. NEXT WEEK?!?!?! wow. never thought id hear myself say that again.. am sorta excited. anxious is the better word i guess. prepare yourself, bcit.

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