words of wisdom.

dear lauryn hill: you speak TRUTH. and i thank you for this song.


It's been three weeks since you've been looking for your friend
The one you let hit it and never called you again
'Member when he told you he was 'bout the Benjamins
You act like you ain't hear him then gave him a little trim
To begin, how you think you really gon' pretend
Like you wasn't down then you called him again
Plus when you give it up so easy you ain't even fooling him
If you did it then, then you probably f*** again
Talking out your neck sayin' you're a Christian
A Muslim sleeping with the gin
Now that was the sin that did Jezebel in
Who you gon' tell when the repercussions spin
Showing off your ass 'cause you're thinking it's a trend
Girlfriend, let me break it down for you again
You know I only say it 'cause I'm truly genuine
Don't be a hardrock when you're really a gem
Babygirl, respect is just a minimum
Niggas f***ed up and you still defending them
Now Lauryn is only human
Don't think I haven't been through the same predicament
Let it sit inside your head like a million women in Philly, Penn.
It's silly when girls sell their soul because it's in
Look at where you be in hair weaves like Europeans
Fake nails done by Koreans
Come again

how you gonna win when you ain't right within?

day four.

day four: if you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?

well.. i havent been to every city in the world so my opinion is very.. naiive. but i guess if i could live anywhere in the world it would have to be the beautiful city of montreal. The culture, the people.. ugh. just thinking about my summer there makes me smile. and then cringe at the amount of alcohol i consumed in a span of five weeks.

day three.

day three: if you could have one wish what would it be?

as vain as it may be i wish i could just snap my fingers and BAM lose 25 pounds. trying to avoid eating delicious food and exercise is just ridiculous.

.. mark my words.. i will drop those damn pounds by the end of summer if its the last thing i do, damnit!!

day two.

day two: explain your current relationship status.

in the words of one of my fave mya songs, "im free. single, sexy, and sweet. making my own money. looking for the right party"

im single. and im not looking. not to pour my heart out but ive been through enough drama for one girl. and im pretty tired of it. not to say that im not keeping my eyes open. because i am. i AM still that hopeless romantic. im just saying that i no longer am willing to invest time with insignificant people. im just saying that id rather focus on more important things right now.. like a job.

day one.

day one: introduce yourself.

im a twentysomething year old white washed asian girl thats under five feet tall. i consider myself smart and i like to think im funny.. that or really awkward.

i have the age mentality of a sixteen year old girl. i have an addiction for teen pop culture. justin bieber? twilight? yea...

i have one younger sister. and yes. she is taller than me.

my two favorite words are pudding and serendipity. pudding is hilarious to say out loud and i believe in serendipity.

i love all types of music but most especially the ones from the old school r&b era.

ive had asthma since i was 13. i embrace this. some people think its weird and kind of nerdy. i guess thats what they teach us in the movies.

im addicted to chick flicks. old and new. my favorite one would have to be "shes all that." it was FPJ at his prime. hells to the yes.

i sell clothes to people. and i dress them in outfits that they normally wouldnt think up themselves. its kind of ironic because i cant seem to dress myself. classic leggings and oversized white tee. thats whats up.

im a god mother. and my niece is an angel. a damn cute one.

i dont trust people easily. its probably because ive learned people cant be trusted. i guess in some ways you can say im a bit of a cynic.

i like things that come in small packages or "sets." especially if they come in threes or fives. i dont know why but it catches my eyes always. and for some reason will always buy in bluk when i see a sign that says something like, "buy 3 for 5.99. reg 2.99/ea"

i may say i hate love. but lets be real.. im a hopeless romantic just like the rest of the sixteen year old girls.

yup! thats marzperez in a nutshell =)

game on.

almost doesnt count.

so ive been crying. all the time. out of the blue. its so. freaking. ANNOYING. tried to figure it out. obviously i couldnt. so i asked an old friend what is up.

shes so wise. sometimes i refuse to admit it to myself that im not okay. that im "better off" without some people. that i should be happy because im moving on. all signs point to yes. this is a good thing for me. but lets get one things straight: its not easy.

im working overtime to forget about my past decisions and although i regret none of them, i cant help but wish a little that things went differently. to make myself feel better i sometimes say, "hey marzperez! you almost had it." well, as the song goes.. almost doesnt count.

get it right.

easy there, emo kid. but im sure we can all relate in some way or another..

i will get it right.

hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.

oh the lovers squabble. how much we love to watch. its almost a guilty pleasure of mine tbh. its kinda sick how i enjoy watching people suffer through verbal abuse.

saw one go down last night. its blog worthy. i will neither deny nor confirm that i dislike the person being verbally abused.

it happened so quickly. and in public. in front of all his friends. embarrassing, non? i am dying of laughter as i write this fyi.

"YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE" - direct quote.

im not sure which ones worse: being publicly humiliated amongst your peers OR involving yourself with a crazy bitch (who btw is my hero).

the way i see it #5946:
karma is your bitch so bend over and take it like one.

fallen.

i can be this creepy.. for real. haaaaaah!

almost.

so we complain and we get sad and we think life sucks without you. we blame ourselves and look back on memories to figure out "where it all went wrong." we try so hard to find the "signs" of when WE messed up. we go crazy and lose sleep over these things. we put all the power in the guys hands by putting him up on a pedestal when we do any of these things. we make ourselves feel worthless.


the way i see it #6749:

we have the power. at the end of the day, when push comes to shove, we are the ones who have the final say. because if you think about it, who gets to say YES or NO when getting proposed to? #riddlemethis