i will come back.

i have no idea why i love this song so much. BUT I DO.

green light.

i forgot what it's like to have two days off in a row to reset. it feels kinda nice. just KNOWING that what i didn't get to finish today can be done tomorrow. par example. I didnt' get a chance to complain at holt renfrew today because i was caught up with laundry and playing with my damn iphone.

ITS OKAY, MARZPEREZ.. there's always tomorrow (like the song!)

fact: dvd box sets are my guilty pleasure. With that said, im spending my afternoon buying out HMV on robson st tomorrow of their dvds and chick flick collection. im going to need more storage space soon.

so like, when a girl gives a guy a number is that a form of "green light?" cause i figured good sir would have gotten the RED light by my lack of text msg response. apparently not? oh boys, you are too funny sometimes.

i need more music in my life. its kind of sad and pathetic that the latest album to hit my hard drive is beyonce's "4."... REALLY? really.

someone like you.

story of my life? sometimes.





eargasm. like actually.

listen.

the removal of clothes in my wardrobe could only mean one thing. I HAVE MORE CLOTHES TO PUT IN MY CLOSET. the only positive i have with my new winnings is that theyre free ninety nine!! its a small perk. but a perk none the less.

operation shameless has been going well. did the volunteer thing for eco fashion week. now its time to gather all those business cards that i received and stroke those peoples egos. im playing the game. and i intend to win.

criminal minds has taken over my life. if im not working or applying for jobs im watching re run after re run. thank you, criminal minds marathons every friday and sunday on A&E. is it lame? absolutely. but i am okay with that.

not going out to drink or eat = saving money = happy marzperez. i have always been the kind of person that needs financial security. i NEED to know that i have X amount of dollars in my bank account... otherwise the world as i know it will be over.

i know im delayed but.. may4.2012. AVENGERS MOVIE. chris evans and RDJ in the same movie. i will be blown away by their sarcastic humor. oh, and i guess thor is cool too.

the mere thought of going out makes me want to vomit. ive come to the decision that i will only go out for occasions. OCCASIONS ONLY, MARZPEREZ. its time to be disciplined. lets see how this goes.

now, for your viewing pleasure...

love on top.

Now everybody asks me why I'm smiling out from ear to ear (They say love hurts)
But I know (It's gonna take the real work)
Nothing's perfect, but it's worth it after fighting through my fears
And finally you put me first

.. im just saying. that if you need a feel good song.. you should listen to "love on top" - beyonce. its on repeat atm. #justsayin

social media analytics. SO USEFUL. people ask me why i still take courses when im already graduated and done my programs. my answer? why stop learning. youre never too old and its never too late for some "enrichment." next up.. SEO!!! the inner geek in me is finally showing through. and im damn proud.

been MIA lately, my apologies. im plotting my master plan. taking over the word before i hit 30. obviously but seriously. i havent gone out much WITH THE EXCEPTION of the saturday birthday shenanigans (souju, vodka, and red dtragons OH MY!). im saving. for my upcoming trips!

like my lola, i get anxiety when i dont ride a plane for a period of time. whats coming up? a baby trip to the vegz with some girlfriends to celebrate a 25th bday. vegas vs marzperez take 3. LETS DO THIS.

so uhh.. anyone looking for a marketing and/or communications intern? how about PR? ugh. my patience is starting to become thin. need i remind future employers that i am AWESOME? and.. ya. thats all i got. isnt that enough?!.. well, it really should be =P

i always thought cooking was lame. turns out, i can actually do it. hah. im one step closer to being wifey material har har har. i dont really like following recipes. it probably stems from the fact that i hate following steps. in any case, i open the fridge up and i made stuff! i can make chicken!! and i made a pasta!! (thanks saghi for giving me inspiration!) i am pretty proud of myself. but dont ask me to bake. cause id screw that up nicely. im sure of it.

when a doctor doesnt know EXACTLY why i have a sharp pain on my right side it worries me. on the plus, i love all medications that include, but are not limited, to codeine. i guess this doctor wasnt completely useless.

fly.

upcoming trips that i hope to attend.. money is issue. time off? i am not too worried about.

1)
the vegas. sophia's 25th bday and i have been graciously invited. first week of november. copious amounts of drinking? dancing? im already there.

2) london. to visit my friend, shani. it's her last year there and ultimately the last year i can go and have free accommodation. and i want to see the eastern part of europe before i turn 30. YES.

3)

harry potter land and disney world. my X birthday is coming up. and i need to celebrate. magic kingdom? sorting hat? OH MAN. my youth is slipping between my fingers. i think experiencing these things when we're a bit older is kinda fun. it gives a new experience than what i did when i was younger..

.. and so the saving begins.

sure thing.

Even when we're down to the wire, babe
Even when it's do or die
We can do it, baby, simple and plain
Cause this love is a sure thing

im such a sucker for slow jams...

just a dream.

i tried and failed horribly at writing travel posts. le sigh. but in all fairness, i was too busy having fun? getting off with new friends and exploring the cities. YES! haha

so you know how when people travel abroad for a period of time they come back home and feel/act differently? well, when i left for my euro trip i said to myself that this wouldnt happen because im not one of those people - those people who go off to "discover" themselves. it seems a little bit odd, non? even as i type it im laughing.

but the truth of the matter is, is that i did. i came home a little bit different. a little more wiser. a little more smarter. and most definitely a little more stronger (not physically... although i did walk quite a bit if that counts?)

theres a bunch of little discoveries i made about myself this month but i think i'll just hone in on one. i learned that im quite a stress case. as carefree and easy going as i seem to be, when it comes down to it - im a bit of a freak. i had this nasty habit of needing to know what time it was constantly and i always wanted to be doing something.. i liked to be preoccupied and i enjoyed the hustle and bustle of life. and it bothered me because i realized that i had no idea how to relax. i mean, when people say relax the image of sleeping on a beach comes to mind - margarita in hand, obvs. and ya, i guess thats a form of relaxation but i couldnt really close my mind; my mind wouldnt stop thinking about work, drama, boys etc.

it took me three weeks but it finally happened. i learned how to relax properly. i stopped trying to make to do lists of the days events and i didnt ask for the time as much. i ate when i was hungry NOT because it was time to eat and i slept when it was dark.. or maybe even when it was daylight (i like to live dangerously). i learned that i really shouldnt take things so seriously. it is what it is. its been my mantra for some time and sadly for the last little while i havent been following it.

three cheers for self reflection? three cheers for adventure? three cheers for finally understanding what it means to calm the fuck down.

Europe adventures: Athens

Athens. ATHENS!!!!!

There's this place called plaka. Its one of the oldest places in Athens. And.. I'm in love. The cobble stone walkways, the buildings on either side of me with unique windows, the food that gets me full off 5 euro when in reality is worth so much more!! I like. It's relaxing and there are tourists everywhere. It makes me laugh. I rarely hear the English language. Its like people are here from France, Spain, or even other parts of Greece.

You know the acropolis and all those old rocks you hear about? Ya. I visited those. It's pretty sweet considering these rocks have been around for a while..like 500BC. It's kind of a trip. Insert giddy art history major happy face.. Now. I saw one of the many statues of Aphrodite. She's my gave greek god. Which is strange cause she's the goddess of love.. And is associated with the color, pink (in north American adaptations of this Greek goddess). Both things I do not particularly enjoy. Har har har.

Like I've said before.. It's hot. Like really hot. So hot that I end up chillin in my hostel for a period of time to avoid the heat. My shoulders are starting to peel. Im less pretty with this happening. Rage. And wearing pants is no bueno. I attempted to wear leggings this morning for our trip to the ancient agora and such. Ya. Big mistake. Leggings and an oversized tee is classic marzperez but when I'm here.. Oh man. It's just not happening.

Last night we had to share a room with a person. You know, typical hostel style. I got scared. It was a boy. Who I'm sure is very nice but dude. When you arrive at midnight when I'm about to fall asleep.. Ya. Youre gonna freak the crap out of me. I'm just chilin in my bed and bam! Door is open. Hahahaha I was like ummm hi?! Cause really what can yo do. I also chatted up some people in the lobby. Ugh. I never realized how socially inept I am. Hahaha!! I forget what it's like to have a conversation with a person without me asking what size they need or if they need help with anything. Hmm.. Clear indication that I work far too much.

In any case, goodbye Greece. Thanks for all the calamari, tzaziki, and spinach pie I could consume in three days. Now, itslia.. Here we gooooo!

Europe adventure: santorini

Sigh. This place is just as awesome as I had expected. It's so quiet and relaxing. Which is totally not what I'm used to. I think it's the fact that the are not so many clocks around. I keep wanting to know the time. But why? Silly marzperez. I have no where to really be!

Anyways, five days on this beautiful island and I could probably live here.. I feel like I will be saying tha a lot. The people her are so incredibly friendly it kind of scares me. Oh.. What? Haha. People are nice? Not as nice as here. They always check if you're doing okay or if you need anything. That's customer service at it's finest.

The entire island of santorini can probably be done in two days. With a car. Or in my case, an atv. Hells to the yes. I rode an atv around town. And I looked hella good doing it... Oh. I'm modest too. Haha in any case. We got lost a million times but like I said... People here want to help.

The great thing about traveling abroad now would have to be the fact that I can tell we aren't the only ones. I see travelers everywhere and yes. We all stick out like sore thumbs. But it's cute. It's like a little connection we all have. Par example, ang and I were psyching ourselves out before the cliff dive. A group of other travelers our age were near us and just started to encourage us. And then! Small world again a little boy and his mom from the BBY started to give us friendly words as well. Needless to say, we jumped. And it was the best thing ever. The water destroyed my hair but I didn't care. Jumping off a cliff in santorini was a MUST.

Last days today and we are spending it relaxing by the pool and then catching the sunset at oia at night. Oia...omg. When you think santorini you think blue roofs and houses built on hills..just like the postcards. Yea. I saw it at night and I'm super pumped to see it in the late evening.

Next up: athens!!

son of a gun.

who you gonna steal from? whos your next victim?

bleeding love.

sometimes, i really miss dancing.

eargasm.

i really couldnt finish the challenge i posted up months ago.. and i havent written in a really long time. life has been moving far too quickly for me.

in lieu of my absense.. a gift, friends. from me to you...

.. wtf. i cannot link this properly. BOO!!

click. and enjoy.

day nine.

day nine: someone you look up to

madre. hands down. probably one of the strongest people i know. she keeps it real. and she works hard for everyone. i would be SO LUCKY to become a woman like her. she gives you the world and expects nothing in return. love her. SO MUCH.

oh. and if youve ever met my mom.. you would also know that shes one scary bitch. which is AWESOME.

day eight.

day eight: if you could change anything about yourself what would it be?

theres a few things that i would like to change but i guess the one that stands out the most would have to be my self esteem. believe it or not, but i am a human doormat. a pushover, if you will. this lovely quality of mine has been mentioned by my close friends many a time. i need to be more confident. i need to wrap my head around the concept that yes.. i really AM that awesome.

.. id also like to change the way my body looks sometimes.. but lets be honest. thats vanity at its finest.

day seven.

day seven: choose song lyrics and explain why you chose them.

What you think about a girl like me?
Buy my own car and spend my own money
Only ring your celly when I'm feeling lonely
When it's all over please get up and leave

Please don't call me baby
Cause I'll call you
Don't mean to hurt you feelings, got a lot to do
Cause I'm am my number one priority
No falling in love, no commitment from me

All my independent women
Throw them hands up at me
And all my sexy women
Throw them hands up at me
All my money making women
Throw them hands up at me
All my baller women
Throw them hands up at me

If you feel it
Throw them hands up
Where them hands at?
If you feel it?
Where the ladies?
Where my homegirls?
Where my females?
Where all my women?

How you feel about a girl like this?
Try to control me, boy you'll get dismissed
Do what I want, live how I wanna live
Buy my own diamonds, and pay my own bills

Please don't call me baby
Cause I'll call you
Don't mean to hurt you feelings, got a lot to do
Cause I'm am my number one priority
No falling in love, no commitment from me

All my independent women
Throw them hands up at me
And all my sexy women
Throw them hands up at me
All my money making women
Throw them hands up at me
All my baller women
Throw them hands up at me

If you feel it
Throw them hands up
Where them hands at?
If you feel it?
Where the ladies?
Where my homegirls?
Where my females?
Where all my women?

How did you feel about this groove I wrote?
Hope you got the message ladies take control
Don't depend on no man to give you what you want
Keep that in mind next time you hear this song

If you're independent
I congratulate you
If you ain't in love
I congratulate you
Do them boys like they used to do you
If you pimp him
I congratulate you

All my independent women
Throw them hands up at me
And all my sexy women
Throw them hands up at me
All my money making women
Throw them hands up at me
All my baller women
Throw them hands up at me

If you feel it
Throw them hands up
Where them hands at?
If you feel it?
Where the ladies?
Where my homegirls?
Where my females?
Where all my women?

If I hurt your feelings boy
I'm sorry but I didn't mean to hurt you yeah
I thought you knew yeah
I got no time to fall in love with you

its pretty self explanatory. im independent.. have been for a while. i dont really depend on a lot of people because i have high expectations. and when theyre not met i get either disappointed, upset, or hurt. thats where im at right now.. ask me again in a year and who knows.. maybe the song lyrics i choose will be different =)

day six.

day six: your best friend.

im too lazy to write about each of them. sahhrie. shoutouts to errbody else. in any case..
behold.. my bffs:

1) ma soeur: sam aka @zerepmas.

ya. shes my sister. ive known her for X amount of years. its kind of funny calling her my bff considering it wasnt too long ago where the mere sight of her would make my blood bubble. nonetheless.. she is my bff. she knows me best. i tolerate her crazy antics. it goes without saying that we're the closest of friends and the worst of enemies - she knows how to make me angry and/or burst into tears. shes my bff because i know she has my back 100% and will always tell me straight up when im being a jerk. i admire her drive to be better. shes the kind of person who will strive for more; she refuses to settle. i could go on about my sister and sing her praises but lets be honest.. shes a brat.. and i wouldnt have her any other way =)

2) chad aka my male counterpart.

i dont QUITE know why hes my bff but i know that he is. its just one of those feelings you have.. i guess the best way to describe it would be comfortable. i have no problem just going to his house to watch movies and eat food in silence. we have mad crazy banter. almost like an old married couple. except we're not married. because thats gross. like my sister, hes one of those people that is completely honest about whats what... especially about guys. i always go to him for advice to know what goes on in a guys head. we have a brother/sister kind of relationship in the sense that he lets me yell at him.. and then we can joke about it five minutes later. however, apart from the jokes our #realtalk is pretty dope. dare i say it on the world wide web.. he is one of the few people i can trust.

day five.

day five: the most amazing thing that ever happened to you?

clearly we are not in day five. i suck hardcore at this challenge!!

the most amazing thing to happen to me would have to be.. how i got introduced to alcohol. hahaha!! its so weird and so not inspiring at all. but if you knew me at all.. youd know that the drink is a huge part of my life.. socially, of course ;)

with that said, thanks cousins, for the introduction when i visited you guys in calgray at the tender and naive age of 18.

words of wisdom.

dear lauryn hill: you speak TRUTH. and i thank you for this song.


It's been three weeks since you've been looking for your friend
The one you let hit it and never called you again
'Member when he told you he was 'bout the Benjamins
You act like you ain't hear him then gave him a little trim
To begin, how you think you really gon' pretend
Like you wasn't down then you called him again
Plus when you give it up so easy you ain't even fooling him
If you did it then, then you probably f*** again
Talking out your neck sayin' you're a Christian
A Muslim sleeping with the gin
Now that was the sin that did Jezebel in
Who you gon' tell when the repercussions spin
Showing off your ass 'cause you're thinking it's a trend
Girlfriend, let me break it down for you again
You know I only say it 'cause I'm truly genuine
Don't be a hardrock when you're really a gem
Babygirl, respect is just a minimum
Niggas f***ed up and you still defending them
Now Lauryn is only human
Don't think I haven't been through the same predicament
Let it sit inside your head like a million women in Philly, Penn.
It's silly when girls sell their soul because it's in
Look at where you be in hair weaves like Europeans
Fake nails done by Koreans
Come again

how you gonna win when you ain't right within?

day four.

day four: if you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?

well.. i havent been to every city in the world so my opinion is very.. naiive. but i guess if i could live anywhere in the world it would have to be the beautiful city of montreal. The culture, the people.. ugh. just thinking about my summer there makes me smile. and then cringe at the amount of alcohol i consumed in a span of five weeks.

day three.

day three: if you could have one wish what would it be?

as vain as it may be i wish i could just snap my fingers and BAM lose 25 pounds. trying to avoid eating delicious food and exercise is just ridiculous.

.. mark my words.. i will drop those damn pounds by the end of summer if its the last thing i do, damnit!!

day two.

day two: explain your current relationship status.

in the words of one of my fave mya songs, "im free. single, sexy, and sweet. making my own money. looking for the right party"

im single. and im not looking. not to pour my heart out but ive been through enough drama for one girl. and im pretty tired of it. not to say that im not keeping my eyes open. because i am. i AM still that hopeless romantic. im just saying that i no longer am willing to invest time with insignificant people. im just saying that id rather focus on more important things right now.. like a job.

day one.

day one: introduce yourself.

im a twentysomething year old white washed asian girl thats under five feet tall. i consider myself smart and i like to think im funny.. that or really awkward.

i have the age mentality of a sixteen year old girl. i have an addiction for teen pop culture. justin bieber? twilight? yea...

i have one younger sister. and yes. she is taller than me.

my two favorite words are pudding and serendipity. pudding is hilarious to say out loud and i believe in serendipity.

i love all types of music but most especially the ones from the old school r&b era.

ive had asthma since i was 13. i embrace this. some people think its weird and kind of nerdy. i guess thats what they teach us in the movies.

im addicted to chick flicks. old and new. my favorite one would have to be "shes all that." it was FPJ at his prime. hells to the yes.

i sell clothes to people. and i dress them in outfits that they normally wouldnt think up themselves. its kind of ironic because i cant seem to dress myself. classic leggings and oversized white tee. thats whats up.

im a god mother. and my niece is an angel. a damn cute one.

i dont trust people easily. its probably because ive learned people cant be trusted. i guess in some ways you can say im a bit of a cynic.

i like things that come in small packages or "sets." especially if they come in threes or fives. i dont know why but it catches my eyes always. and for some reason will always buy in bluk when i see a sign that says something like, "buy 3 for 5.99. reg 2.99/ea"

i may say i hate love. but lets be real.. im a hopeless romantic just like the rest of the sixteen year old girls.

yup! thats marzperez in a nutshell =)

game on.

almost doesnt count.

so ive been crying. all the time. out of the blue. its so. freaking. ANNOYING. tried to figure it out. obviously i couldnt. so i asked an old friend what is up.

shes so wise. sometimes i refuse to admit it to myself that im not okay. that im "better off" without some people. that i should be happy because im moving on. all signs point to yes. this is a good thing for me. but lets get one things straight: its not easy.

im working overtime to forget about my past decisions and although i regret none of them, i cant help but wish a little that things went differently. to make myself feel better i sometimes say, "hey marzperez! you almost had it." well, as the song goes.. almost doesnt count.

get it right.

easy there, emo kid. but im sure we can all relate in some way or another..

i will get it right.

hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.

oh the lovers squabble. how much we love to watch. its almost a guilty pleasure of mine tbh. its kinda sick how i enjoy watching people suffer through verbal abuse.

saw one go down last night. its blog worthy. i will neither deny nor confirm that i dislike the person being verbally abused.

it happened so quickly. and in public. in front of all his friends. embarrassing, non? i am dying of laughter as i write this fyi.

"YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE" - direct quote.

im not sure which ones worse: being publicly humiliated amongst your peers OR involving yourself with a crazy bitch (who btw is my hero).

the way i see it #5946:
karma is your bitch so bend over and take it like one.

fallen.

i can be this creepy.. for real. haaaaaah!

almost.

so we complain and we get sad and we think life sucks without you. we blame ourselves and look back on memories to figure out "where it all went wrong." we try so hard to find the "signs" of when WE messed up. we go crazy and lose sleep over these things. we put all the power in the guys hands by putting him up on a pedestal when we do any of these things. we make ourselves feel worthless.


the way i see it #6749:

we have the power. at the end of the day, when push comes to shove, we are the ones who have the final say. because if you think about it, who gets to say YES or NO when getting proposed to? #riddlemethis

baby.

[02.19.11] a day of surprises...

midnight. friends house. surprised with cake. i cried.
evening. kingston bar. surprise party. insert confusion.

... how did i get to be so lucky?!

smile.

When you first left me
I was wanting more
But you were kissing that girl next door
What'cha do that for?
What'cha do that for?

When you first left me
I didnt know what to say
I've never been on my own that way
Just sat by myself all day

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found the light in the tunnel at the end

Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you are feeling alone

At first when I see you cry
It makes me smile
Yeah it makes me smile

At worst I feel bad for a while
But then I just smile
I go ahead and smile

Whenever you see me
You say that you want me back
(Want me back)
And I tell you it don't mean jack
(It don't mean jack)
No it don't mean jack
(No it don't mean jack)

I couldn't stop laughing
No I just couldn't help myself
See you messed up my mental health
I was quite unwell

diva off!!

lady gaga. 21st century madonna?

am i TOTALLY off base when thinking this? dont get me wrong, i have respect for both. but they are apples that have fallen from the same tree.

proof pudding: express yourself vs. born this way. admit it... they sound VERY similar.




my question i bring to the panal: is lady gaga an artistic genius OR just another carbon copy of madonna?

deuces.

boys vs girls. take the same track and make it BETTER. love it when they do that..

on hockey (and everything inbetween)

as most of you know i am a newb to the 'hockey scene.' god bless the olympics among other influences. thank you for proving me WRONG when i would say in the past time and time again how much hockey sucks. puck in net? please. there is so much more to it... but hey, at least i have mastered the basics!!

i watch the games on tv. i cheer and yell at the screen from time to time. because lets be honest.. if i scream at the tv loud enough they will hear me. they WILL skate harder, damn you!!

ive been lucky enough to watch a few games. and im sorry. but like most things in my life.. its just far better to go through it with a couple drinks on hand. alcoholic much? no. work hard = play hard. and everyone is just much more friendly when we've all drank a few... or maybe thats just me. i DO recall offering my food to people.. i am THAT filipino woman. must.. feed.. EVERYONE!!!

moral of this story: hockey requires drinks.

you know what else a live game has? different people to watch with. par example, today.. i almost wanted to punch the person sitting in front of the sis. because he looked like someone i know (and dislike.. obvs.) but every time he spoke i would give him my death stare. its a bad look. i dont use it often. but when i do. you will FEEL my eyes burning a hole in your head. anyways, he survived. as did i. but good lord when he stood up on a chair i almost felt inclined to push him. law suit waiting to happen? i was falling and your legs were the only things within reach to hold my fall. myyyyy bad? if only...

hockey games also have.. BABY HOCKEY PLAYERS!! the cutest things since.. well.. imagine something really cute. multiply it by a hundred.. and then maybe youll understand how cute these kids were. awwwwwww baby canucks ftw!!

in short: hockey's not that bad. blahblahblah i can already HEAR people laughing at me as they read this. thats right, kids. marzperez is.. dare i say it.. a hockey fan.

now... someone teach me the actual rules of the game. off side?... excuse you?

successful.

the value of friendship cannot be measured based on years they know a person. nor can it be measured on how frequent they hang out... just sayin =)

ive decided its time to start making lunch. because i eat far too much junk. all the mcdonalds and the tiki ming chinese food from the mall foodcourt is making my body DIE. so.. i need to start making food. and by make i mean either microwave or cold cuts. the menu for the week: sandwiches. because lets be real. i may be 24, but i cant cook a decent meal.

you are only as hot as your ugliest friend.. #realtalk

i am a fan of the top 40. i enjoy listening to the radio and knowing what the 'club banger' theme song of the month is. HOWEVER. if someone was to ask me my opinion of music today i would simply say.. it sucks. yes its an opinion and yes. im kind of a hypocrite because i just said that i like top 40. allow me to explain. music today is easy. it has a good beat, catchy lyrics.. you know.. the recipe that screams "i just need airplay, damnit!!" and ya. whatever. good times. but will i enjoy these same songs in 10 years? probably not. you know what songs are still awesome 10 years later?! classic oldschool R&B. im talking brandy, candy rain, and usher before he had a confession. thats whats up.

i wonder what will replace facebook. its been having a good run. nine years going strong. what makes it so different from every other social network? could it be the constant face lifts that it gets? the applications? hmmm.. someone enlighten me.

i need a job. as a social media coordinator. time to make it raaaaaaaaain!!!

i told myself that 2011 i will have NO DRAMA. i mean, people around me can have all the drama they want to participate in. but no. this year, i will not have any! only good thoughts and good times for me. i will not let people interfere! NO SIR.

smile like you mean it...

you were never a waste of time.
you were just the harsh realization that i could do better.

#realtalk

heaven forbid.

what was 2010 to you? how does it compare to the other years? does it measure up or down? 2010 was one of the most dramatic years ive had in a while. but in those past 365 days i learned a lot about myself through the people around me.

part one: the olympics.
no one can disagree that the olympics were nothing less than awesome. although i didnt participate nearly as much as i wanted to, the times that i did were nothing short of amazing. the crowd, the events, the presence!! my fondest moment would have to be when the sis and i went to a hockey game for my birthday. though we knew nothing about the sport, it was entertaining none the less. the olympics were most def a highlight of 2010 because, well, lets face it.. its the olympic games!! and i love to ice dance!!

part two: back to school.
it took me two years but i finally figured it out. i decided that it was time to go back to school and do something for myself. i gradded with a degree that as much as i LOVE, i am not really using. mostly because i had no idea what people do with a history and english degree. dont say teach because i hate children. and yes. because i already tried that option. the answer? marketing communications. im good with sales. and im good with people. the power of persuasion is a gift that i am lucky to have. so, here i go. and one year later with one semester left i can actually say that this was probably the best decision that i made in 2010.

part three: the email (and everything after) this is the part of the story where i can say curiosity got the best of me. and it started with an email at the beginning of the year. after that, the rest is a string of unfortunate events. its the classic scenario. boy likes girl. girl likes boy. boy screws up girl. the end. HOLD UP. let me break it down for you. said person made a huge impact on my 2010, which is strange to admit because said person... was horrible to me. theres no need to explain into details what happened. all that needs to be said is that he played the game very well. and i played along. and it was fun until i lost. i lost my self respect. and thats something i didnt expect to lose. somewhere along the lines i forgot my own worth. all time low. noooooo bueno. but the harsh reality is, is thats the only way i learn.said person had pushed me to an emotional limit that i liked until i didnt. i am thankful that i was pushed to that boundary. i needed to remove myself from the comfort zone ive established in my life. learning experiences ftw!!

part four: the niece.
now, although bebz' birth was in 2009, she was still very important for 2010. she taught me how to like children. ive learned how to be patient, even though i still have quite the short attention span. i am happy to say that i have come a long way from what i was before. she is my sunshine! par example, at work i am always "on," that being, i dont like visits from people because it pulls time away from selling. however, when bebz comes in, work stops. and everyone knows it. because i will stop helping people to play with her. like i said, shes my sunshine. but also a constant reminder that there are more important things in life. every time i see her she has learned something new, whether its clapping her hands or walking. in summary, she showed me this year that life is precious. and i need to slow down and appreciate the little things.

part five: the resolution.
it only took three years. but im finally okay. three years ago i lost my best friend because i was selfish and stubborn. and because he was selfish and stubborn. fast forward to 2010 mid year. drunken phone calls and a few text messages. what else is new!! we are okay. i am okay. after all the time that has passed its funny how the first person i wanted to call when i was upset about said person is the OTHER said person. this person knows me better than i know myself. and although we arent as close as we once were, im happy to say that in 2010 we resolved our issues and are moving forward. this moment in 2010 made me realize that time really can heal all wounds. thank you, dear friend, for being there when i needed to cry. thank you, dear friend, for answering your phone even when you were out with the guys. thank you, dear friend, for everything =)

2010. 52weeks. 365days.
was there drama? obvs.
were their tears? so many.
was there partying? most indeed.
do i regret any of it? not for a second.

doo wop.

welcome 2011!! i hope that this year will be better than the last. it has to be. PLEASE!!

all the hustle hustle from work and the christmas/new years festivities are finally over. i can breathe again. these last few weeks have been such a blur its bananas!! my room has been a disaster. its almost as if a bomb went off in my closets. am slowly starting to clear out the clutter..

my room is also full of empty but awesome shopping bags. from various purchases. for both you and i. now i know where my money went.. ho humm.

i have an H&M bag. enclosed is a pretty black shirt that does not fit me. wow marzperez. you really failed on that one. i have at least four aritzia bags. which i have now condensed into one with an array of clothes that i do (not) need. who needs three grey oversized cropped shirts? I DO. and who NEEDS a lace top that will only be used as a layering piece? I DO. and lets not forget my monthly pair of leggings. a marzperez wardrobe staple. heck yes.


but what, say you, is my favorite bag thats been lying in my room floor collecting dust? my inlook optical bag. HECK YES. i got myself some new glasses. woooooot. happy new year to me, indeed. why is this the best bag? well 1) my glasses are awesome 2) i got them at 40% off and 3) i love my benefits... saving money FTW!!! to be honest im not sure what im more excited about: the fact that i got new glasses or the fact that i saved money buying them. hmmm...

sidneote: life's a bitch cause a ho is too easy.

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