cry me a river.

sometimes imu...

ive purposely added more things to my plate to ensure that i dont have a quiet moment by myself to THINK. and it worked for a little bit. except today. i dont know why today was different but it was. for the first time in maybe two weeks i didnt want to punch myself for letting you get under my skin. for the first time in two weeks i was sad that we arent friends.

... just sayin. nbd or anything.

The Roof.

ser·en·dip·i·ty

– noun

1. an aptitude for making desirable discoveries by accident.

2. good fortune

— n

the faculty of making fortunate discoveries by accident

serendipity

1754 (but rare before 20c.), coined by Horace Walpole (1717-92) in a letter to Mann (dated Jan. 28); he said he formed it from the Persian fairy tale "The Three Princes of Serendip," whose heroes "were always making discoveries, by accidents and sagacity, of things they were not in quest of." The name is from Serendip, an old name for Ceylon (modern Sri Lanka), from Arabic Sarandib, from Skt. Simhaladvipa "Dwelling-Place-of-Lions Island." Serendipitous formed c.1950.

... soon to be INKED. whatupppp!!!!

lose my breath.

independent women, whatupppp!!!



this is officially my feel good song of the week.

D.O.A

and so the vicious cycle starts up again...

- you dont like me but you think im "cute"
- you admit to being a liar and to have lied to me before
- you straight up told me to listen to my friends and stop talking to you
- you call me a "nice kid" in the most patronizing way possible
- im pretty sure you make fun of me with your friends (because apparently guy talk equates to being douchebags)
- youre proud to be an asshole
- youve said countless times that youre not going to change
- you only talk to me when its convenient for you (ie: walking home alone and drunk)

so wait. let me understand. after all this.. i am STILL here?! oh no. it cannot be. oh. BUT IT IS. i am embarrassed to say.. that i have become.. THAT GIRL.

just aint gonna work out.

current mood: lost

fave song atm: unthinkable - akeys and drake.

thoughts: i miss you. toronto in 20. where did you go. why. i thought you wanted us to be friends. october is my favorite month. where am i. im not sorry. you dont deserve my time. bills bills bills. respect is earned. otp. leave me alone. trust. drink some. i hate liars. never say never. can i forgive. time to start over. its getting colder at night. so tired. should we be friends. i dont think youre an asshole. i spend too much money. dismissed. what do i want.

POA: smile.

replacement girl.

"ted mosby, I'm going to teach you how to live..."- Barney, HIMYM

let me drop some knowledge on you:

once upon a time in a suburb far far away from vancouver there were a group of girls having an intellectual conversation about the male species....

J: *talking about the guy she is currently swooning over* hes so awesome.
M: boys suck
S: ya! theyre only good for two things
M: ya! *raises index finger in the air* sex and..
(silence)
M: .. and i dont know what the other one is.
(laughter)

.fin.