guardian angel.

do you ever have those days when youre hanging out or talking to someone and as they go on about whatever the eff youre talking about you think to yourself, "why the HECK am i even involving myself with you." cuz i do. and its weird. not because thats a weird thought. but because its happening a little too often. especially these last few weeks. ho humm...

i miss the olympics. post olympic depression. i need something to do. i need a reason to be drunk at three in the afternoon. i need to see the red white and black surround the streets of robson and granville. oh were the days when id receive the txt msgs and phone calls to go downtown. what for? OLYMPIC MADNESS, THATS WHAT!! i feel lost.

i have a slight love for hockey. this is kind of a huge deal. my cousins can understand that this is simply unnatural. i was the girl that would say "what quarter is this?" when trying to watch a game. yuup. but now theres a purpose. and his name is sid crosby. hes cute. not taylor pyatt cute. but still cute. OH! and theres another one too.. but i forget his name. needless to say, i watch hockey now with the intention of potentially discovering some eye candy. everyone has their motives this just happens to be mine. judge all you want. at least i can say there are three periods in a game now. next on the list: icing.

alice in wonderland. avatar. and remember me. YES. someone watch this crap with me. pleaaaaaase. before i start crying. the first two need to be in 3D.

so for lent i tried to give up swearing. that didnt work out too well. especially after a hard day at work. so i gave up something new: fries. i think i can do it. just one month.. this ones much more probable than last years alcohol try. i lasted i think two weeks? and thats with the whole "sundays the day of rest" so i could drink sunday at 12am at the bar. how lame.

back to school. and im loving it. i dont know what it is. maybe its my classmates. or maybe its the environment. no. its definetly having the satisfaction of knowing that im learning something that i love and will pursue in the future. that didnt take long at all. haha

ryan leslie is life. his new album is seriously on repeat at work. and when i get home. oh man. the lyrics. the beats. his voice. my faves are "guardian angel" and "i choose you." but really, i like them all. i just prefer these two cuz they slow my mind down. like way down.

POP OPERA THIS SATURDAY. happy belated birthday to me. it really didnt feel right not celebrating. people gave me weird looks when i said i wasnt gonna celebrate. and you know what? they were right. the olympics kinda made it hard to set something up hence why its this weekend. come one. come all =)

the eclipse movie trailer sucked balls hardcore. its my fave book in the entire series. david slade, you better not disappoint.

telephone.

i am really really happy right now. why? because the grammy's were on aka my fave award show next to the AMAs. and what makes me even more happier? TSWIFT WON ALBUM OF THE YEAR!! woopwoop!!

performances: all very great. except pinks. because i dont like her in general. i find her voice annoying. and the whole ooh look at me im all acrobatic and shit is kinda weird. and didnt she KIND OF do something similar last year? me thinks yes. i havent quite decided which performance i enjoyed more. beyonce's cover of "you ought to know" or drake/eminem/lilwayne's rap performance. fuck you, cbs for censoring so much of their performance. me and my dad were yelling at the tv. well, it was more of me yelling at my dad, "OMG WHAT IS GOING ON CHANGE THE CHANNEL!!"

i got my haircut over the weekend. felt so good. mmm pretty hair!!

oh you know what else i got? a sweet smokers cough that was so deep i not only had a nice asthma attack in the middle of the night, but hurt my lungs! it still hurts when i inhale deeply. i cant even walk up some stairs without wheezing right now. i hate being sick!!! and eff my weak lungs. how does one make these organs stronger?? hmmm...

can someone please tell me why the olympic art is so ugly and yet kind of fascinating? i like the tree things.. sort of.

my pvr failed to tape vampire diaries and greys. YES BATCH. you may proceed to tell me in great detail what i missed last week.

speaking of television. i need entourage in my life again. watched season 3A last night. THEY FIRED ARI? oh sweet merciful jeebus say it aint so!! im telling you. after watching this show my swear word count has increased exponentially. seriously. every other word. its not good for my grammar.

i smelt coconuts just now. and i started to freak out. and then i remembered my conditioner is coconut scented. bwahaha. im so funny sometimes. looking around my room for a coconut candle or something only to find out it was my hair.

what would make my world right now? a musical performance that included the female greats of the present: gaga, beyonce, and tswift. now wouldnt THAT be an epic performance? heck yes.

k. im feeling stuffed up. its time for my meds.

te amo.

oh riri. sometimes your cd makes me sad. and then i remember this is the "blue period" of every artist. Picasso had one. you shall too.

i will take this opportunity to express my anger towards rogers and my phone. daaaaamnit rogers and your problems with smart phones!! damn you and your lack of internet due to system upgrades!! and damn me for not knowing how to actually install these freaking upgrades!! ohso unhappy.

you know what else makes me angry? angry customers. oh. im sorry that im the only one on the floor and there are 4394 customers in the room and you clearly see that im trying to help everyone and give me evil glares as a signal for me to check on you. umm HI. im pretty sure you know where that shirt is and im pretty sure you can get it yourself if you absolutely need it right this instant. I AM ONLY ONE PERSON!! grahh. oh. and dont tell my manager to get off the phone and process your return. excuuuuuuuuse you. she is doing the best she can!! it is called multitasking. learn it. live it. love it.

i am in one bitch ass mood these days. early signs of the monthly visitor. rage anger rage.

i watched the movie "hes just not that into you" again. so smart. reminds me that there are NO signs and if a guy really wants to ask you out HE WILL. its that simple. funny story. my friend alyssa reminded me that its almost singles awareness day aka valentines and i said, "oh right! i totally forgot!... fuck love!!" end scene.

coachella? i want too. or i can just save up for other things. or pay my bills.

i really want to walk around downtown and see all the pretty olympic decorations before shit hits the fan and wont wanna be in the area ever. maaan!! can you believe the olympics are almost here? am kinda excited. am kinda wtf. its already a bitch and a half to get downtown for the burbs. and now i have to compete with foreigners for a seat on the skytrain? maaaaaaaan.

i forgot how much fun it is to drunk text. thanks people for participating in my fun on saturday night. you were all good entertainment.

ENTOURAGE MARATHON!!!!! need i say more? ive been looking forward to this day since my sister failed to take home season three. ya, i said it. you FAIL. almost as badly as my htc. ohhhhhhh man.

the end.

anything.

welcome 2010!!! five days in and its not too shabby. who am i kidding? ive been working strait. woop woop weekend though!! insert sentimental moments: work just isnt the same without all those seasonal help. dare i say it.. i miss them? all of them? (well.. maybe not all of them) but in general i actually do. but WHY? more often than not im the one my managers look at when they lecture how we gotta be nice to them. coughcough im sorry im a bitch. but no! this year i was nice! because they didnt suck! AAAAAAAAAMEN. and now i miss them. oh man. what to do what to do...

entourage really is the male sex and the city. only BETTER. ya i said it. the lifestyle and 'biz' that they all have is what i dream about doing one day ahhh!!! but less swear words. they cuss like truckers. thats a bit excessive. and i cant stop staring at adrien grenier. like DAMN. i think its the hair. aida says its the eyes.. but no. its the hair.

is it bad to want to drink on a constant basis?? hmm... all in moderation right? so long as im not always trashed right? i dont know anymore. all i know is i want to party and drink again. like now. like tunnel? no. MARKDOWN PARTY TOMORROW AT 008. ohhhhhhhhh man. why i volunteer my evenings to work i still dont understand.

one two three and to the four. am listening to the brown sugar soundtrack. when did you fall in love with hip hop? i still dont know.

what are your new years resolutions? mine would be to make sure i do something with these 365 days. 2009 was a joke of a year to me because i didnt do anything with it. i hardly vacationed. all i did was work. and for what? my bank account is hardly admirable so saving cant be it. i wasted soo much time doing nothing so im determined to do SOMETHING with 2010. aaaaamen.

who would have thought it cost eighty dollah to clean up a duvet. WHAT THE FUCK ASIAN LADY YOUS CRAAAAAAAAAAAZY... but understandable. she took one look at the mess and cringed. i threw up in my mouth a little bit too. whatever. it had to be done. lose lose i guess.

so i lost my camera on new years. im starting to kinda freak out because it has to be somewhere in my house! im just not looking hard enough i guess. like its in my house. no doubts. but seriously. i only SORTA know when the last time i had it. that and my cell phone. why did you let me even try to hold that shit. laaaaaaame.

on that note, new years was fucking awesome. thanks to all who attended. the good, the bad, and the ugly.. it was all worth it. so give yourselves a pat on the back for an excellent ring into the new year.

i start school next week. i start school NEXT WEEK? i start SCHOOL. NEXT WEEK?!?!?! wow. never thought id hear myself say that again.. am sorta excited. anxious is the better word i guess. prepare yourself, bcit.

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Love v. Money

volunteering is the shit. working for a cause that could help improve the future is the shit... kiiiiiiiinda wish i did this more. but i dont. i cant say that i dont have the time because i do. i just dont do it.

lets be honest we all have time to do this and that tit for tat. but we dont. because sometimes we're all just a bunch of selfish aholes that cant help but worry about OUR problems and how much OUR lives suck. "FML" as we all like to say.

our lives could be worse. We should be so grateful that we do not suffer from diseases and poverty like other countries have to on a regular basis. its the sad and unfortunate truth that we even think for a second that our lives are so full of misfortune when there are those out there who have been dealt with bad cards far worse than we could even fathom.

What is it that brought on this deep gratitude for the things I have? We can thank my obsession with celebrities. saw a link for twilight, obvs. i clicked. lead to me a youtube clip of the new PSA for "One" the anti-poverty group that was co founded by Bono. Had a mash up of some celebs discussing how our involvement in groups like these can change the future. Well done, marketing team. Youve inspired.

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