anything.

welcome 2010!!! five days in and its not too shabby. who am i kidding? ive been working strait. woop woop weekend though!! insert sentimental moments: work just isnt the same without all those seasonal help. dare i say it.. i miss them? all of them? (well.. maybe not all of them) but in general i actually do. but WHY? more often than not im the one my managers look at when they lecture how we gotta be nice to them. coughcough im sorry im a bitch. but no! this year i was nice! because they didnt suck! AAAAAAAAAMEN. and now i miss them. oh man. what to do what to do...

entourage really is the male sex and the city. only BETTER. ya i said it. the lifestyle and 'biz' that they all have is what i dream about doing one day ahhh!!! but less swear words. they cuss like truckers. thats a bit excessive. and i cant stop staring at adrien grenier. like DAMN. i think its the hair. aida says its the eyes.. but no. its the hair.

is it bad to want to drink on a constant basis?? hmm... all in moderation right? so long as im not always trashed right? i dont know anymore. all i know is i want to party and drink again. like now. like tunnel? no. MARKDOWN PARTY TOMORROW AT 008. ohhhhhhhhh man. why i volunteer my evenings to work i still dont understand.

one two three and to the four. am listening to the brown sugar soundtrack. when did you fall in love with hip hop? i still dont know.

what are your new years resolutions? mine would be to make sure i do something with these 365 days. 2009 was a joke of a year to me because i didnt do anything with it. i hardly vacationed. all i did was work. and for what? my bank account is hardly admirable so saving cant be it. i wasted soo much time doing nothing so im determined to do SOMETHING with 2010. aaaaamen.

who would have thought it cost eighty dollah to clean up a duvet. WHAT THE FUCK ASIAN LADY YOUS CRAAAAAAAAAAAZY... but understandable. she took one look at the mess and cringed. i threw up in my mouth a little bit too. whatever. it had to be done. lose lose i guess.

so i lost my camera on new years. im starting to kinda freak out because it has to be somewhere in my house! im just not looking hard enough i guess. like its in my house. no doubts. but seriously. i only SORTA know when the last time i had it. that and my cell phone. why did you let me even try to hold that shit. laaaaaaame.

on that note, new years was fucking awesome. thanks to all who attended. the good, the bad, and the ugly.. it was all worth it. so give yourselves a pat on the back for an excellent ring into the new year.

i start school next week. i start school NEXT WEEK? i start SCHOOL. NEXT WEEK?!?!?! wow. never thought id hear myself say that again.. am sorta excited. anxious is the better word i guess. prepare yourself, bcit.

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Love v. Money

volunteering is the shit. working for a cause that could help improve the future is the shit... kiiiiiiiinda wish i did this more. but i dont. i cant say that i dont have the time because i do. i just dont do it.

lets be honest we all have time to do this and that tit for tat. but we dont. because sometimes we're all just a bunch of selfish aholes that cant help but worry about OUR problems and how much OUR lives suck. "FML" as we all like to say.

our lives could be worse. We should be so grateful that we do not suffer from diseases and poverty like other countries have to on a regular basis. its the sad and unfortunate truth that we even think for a second that our lives are so full of misfortune when there are those out there who have been dealt with bad cards far worse than we could even fathom.

What is it that brought on this deep gratitude for the things I have? We can thank my obsession with celebrities. saw a link for twilight, obvs. i clicked. lead to me a youtube clip of the new PSA for "One" the anti-poverty group that was co founded by Bono. Had a mash up of some celebs discussing how our involvement in groups like these can change the future. Well done, marketing team. Youve inspired.

Check out the ad:

pretty girls....

... Thanks to the flow right now what up!

american thanksgiving weekend. for some thats the time of giving thanks, turkey eating in excessive portions, and possibly pumpkin pie two slices. for me, it means BLACK FRIDAY SHOPPING. im not a crazy shopper im actually in control when i see all the discount signs. so i did pretty good. i came home with four new pairs of shoes. four. WHY. i do this always. i buy all these shoes but i always wear the same damn ones. you know which ones. the pleather ankle booties i got from alyssa. the AE ones. the ones that are NOT water resistant. oh but i still wear them. i cant break from them. theyre to precious. call me a pack rat i dun currr!!!

this is what i observed over the weekend:
- americans love to free pour their alcohol. WE LOVE THIS. tip them well they will treat you well. PREACH.
- american boys have, dare i say it, more balls than canadian ones. they are ten times more forward when it comes to approaching girls. some have ZERO game. you know. like the ones that expect you to dance with them when they dance behind you - umm me dancing here was NOT an open invitation for you to pull me closer and then there are those who try to pretend that they just want some 'no touch dancing' and then they try pull you closer. umm you are now in my bubble; my personal space. it is now time for youuu to leave. but despite all the lines and the moves and the 'heyy baby's' that we hear, they dont quit. and i gotta give them props. because they hold their head up high and move on to the next drunkie thats walking around.
- american clubs have gooooooood music. or maybe it was just the ones that i went to. but they beats were hard and the transitions were smooth. aaaaaaaamen.
- their portions of food are LOVING. like wow. something i look forward to, no lie. the abundance of food on a plate is sharable. me likey. even in the food court. my cousin, sister, and I shared ONE plate of chinese food. ONE PLATE. mind you, i wasnt completely stuffed but it lasted from lunch to dins. so cant complain there!
.. there were other things i observed but sadly i didnt write them down. fail.

my niece, ava, is CUUUUUUUUUUTE. she has big eyes. like BIG ONES. and i love it. its like she sees into your soul, that young one. love her. love how shes so little. lovelove and more love.

10 minute trainer. starts tomorrow. SORRY NAT! been waaay busy. what with 6 day work week last week then the states this week. such little time. so much to do.

WOOOOT EDUMACATION. getting all my courses together. what is it that im taking? marketing communications. why didnt someone tell me id be good at that when i was in university? damnit all. its okay. figured it out. my fortune is really coming true! things are coming together slowly for me. thank goodness its about time i got my shit together.

i cant find my ipod. i CANT find my ipod. i may scream just a little. i havent used it in a couple of weeks. and now ive misplaced it. this makes me very sad. because i have new music to put into it. sadface indeed. how can you be a happy ipod without the emo sounds of rihanna and and oldschool DC3 (oh yes! i broke that out of the box today)

.. im craving chicken fingers.

b.u.d.d.y

.. give it a try.

i watched the new britney spears music video. very 80s. body suits, the mesh and the lace ensembles, the shadow dancing... you get the picture. oh. and poles. it would be britney without poles. thoughts? the 1-2-3 song is okay but the video is uncool. she reveals a lot of her back. she doesnt exactly have the nicest back. ohhhhhhhhhh britney. go back to your kids.

50hr work weeks make me go a little crazy. its all in the spirit of SALE. thats right, kids. if you didnt know about it before you are for sure hearing about it now. ARITZIA IS ON SALE. happy quarter of a century, my beloved workplace. i actually dont mind working all the time. gives me less time to do the silly things i used to do aka spend all my money on draaaaank. oh wait. i still kinda do that.

SOBER WEEKEND STARTS NOW. im determined. at least one weekend sans the juice. i dont know how well this will play out considering its the lovely sophia's bday. do you all remember sophias birthday last year? CUZ I SORT OF DO. "make it gooooooo!" "give me oneeeeee moreeeeeeee chaaaaaance" random limo bus riding, breaking the shit out of shines ladies bathroom, and im pretty sure bien broke zf's window.... you know how we do. oh, and how could i forget the moment when i didnt know who was driving my car. dont worry. it was christy. i just didnt know who she was at the time.

i watched the movie se7en last night. never watched it in full. ever. caught the last hour of it. dude. brad pitt was a hottie in the day. now hes all bearded and married with 3849384 adopted children from ethiopia or africa whateverthefuck. anyways, good movie. pretty morbid. LOVED the ending. am considering to watch it again. although that could be a waste of time seeing as i already know how it ends. meh. doesnt stop me from watching twilight religiously.

speaking of which, NEW MOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im watching it soon. with summer 09 crew. love them. love the original days of the hunt. love taylor lautner. ps did you watch his interview with jimmy fallon? so cute. love the motorbike race. i use the term motorbike loosely.

wale is my new lupe fiasco. everyone needs to know wale. hes part of of ROC for goodness sakes. oh jayZ, you really do have an empire state of mind.

i finished 90210 season 4. now what the heck am i gonna listen to before i go to bed!!!!!

now or never.

kpop is fucking annoying. but i couldnt stop watching it. its like those moments when you see a car accident - you cant help but look. in this case, i cant help but look at all the cheese. shit. korean pop music makes me laugh. no disrespect. im sure the filipinos have something similar. pfft im CONFIDENT that we do.

am currently feelin the punk and glam kind of looks these days. probably all the gossip girl ive been watching. the punk of little J with the dark make up and messed up hair followed by anything baggy but not oversized. its comfy. its sexy. its most def a look i cannot pull off but will most certainly try. and then we have the glam. this is SOO not me. i am not that girly. nor do i have the time to care about everything down to my matching chanel (hah! i wish!) but it is a cute look. a nice cocktail dress paired with some sort of heel that doesnt take anything away from the over all look. i need a winter look. hmms hmms hmms.. or i can just be me and wear my leggings. YES!!!

when did music start to suck? theres a song out there. that spells out BITCH. why? WHY?! that has no lyrical merit whatsoever. cmon diane warren! CMON!!!!!!

mya. brandy. monica: you know what im talking about. circa i wanna be down just one of dem days ghetto superstar. ohhhhhhhh man. takes me back. am currently listening to it all on youtube. do you remember those days? its kind of like the question, "when did you fall in love with hip hop?" (brown sugar). i remember when i watched mya's music video for its all about me and saying, WTF THATS THE GUY FROM DRU HILL! i remember listening to brandy's sittin up in my room on repeat because i actually thought that if i WAITED, he would come. i remember when space jam came on and heard monica's rendition of for you i will and wanted to sound juuust like her. yes. im crazy. and yes. i miss those days. a lot. wootwoot ps: this ones for angela hayan pak because if there was annnnnnnnyone who would jam with me to these artists, it was her!! awwwwwww <3

did anyone watch taylor swift on SNL? cuz i did. only a bit. enough to catch the monologue and FIRELIGHT aka her version of twilight but with frankenstein. shiiiet so funny. made my night for sure. i had to watch the monologue again because i didnt quite get it the first time (partially because i was drinking and talking over it). LOVED the call out to kanye, joe jonas, and my favorite.. taylor lautner. yesss!!! taylor and taylor wooot!!

speaking of twilight, breaking dawn is rumored to be filmed in vancouver! MY PRAYERS HAVE BEEN ANSWERED!! AAAAAAAAAAAMEN!! my heart dropped when i heard it was potentially being filmed in portland due to shitty bc taxes. but praise Allah!! am just waiting for the imdb link to show up.