halo.

im only human and thats my saving grace =)

girls make mistakes. we're entitled to do so. but WHY do we insist on making the same mistake multiple times. gahh. i complain about everything and anything that's in my head and yet i still refuse to do something about it. WHY.

thank you, said person, for not only proving me wrong but proving EVERYONE ELSE right.

differences.

"If she's amazing, she won't be easy. If she's easy, she wont be amazing. If she's worth it, you won't give up. If you give up, you're not worthy."

i find it absolutely hilarious when guys pick and choose to run for the hos in this town. its kind of like.. why have coke when i can have presidents choice cola? i mean.. coke is an all around good brand. it is well established and is credible. coke is "the real thing." but.. president's choice is just as good right? i mean. they taste the same. they provide the same service in the sense that theyre both fizzy and delightful drinks. so what's the difference? oh. right. president's choice is CHEAP. and at the end of the day.. you get what you pay for.

.. and people wonder why i'm such a brand whore.

unpredictable.

im freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. insert deep sighs of relief. YES. i may have no idea what i want from life but i am slowly understanding what i dont want.

.. mind you, i have a nasty habit of always changing my mind. vomit.

untitled.

"I wish someone would tell me something incredibly profound. I wish my heart would beat beat beat in time with theirs and things I want to say wouldn’t get caught in my throat like my hair gets caught in my fingers and ties itself into knots. I wish the voice in my head didn’t say the things it does, because of all the people I can trust in the world I shouldn’t be one of them. That’s why I listen to music louder than the sounds of the late-night television programs like poker competitions and bad films starring bad actors. And in the middle of the cacophony of sounds the only thoughts I can hear are the singer’s, the whisperer’s, the poet’s, infinitely better and wiser. Wiser even than the stars. I bet they don’t trust themselves either. I bet lots of people don’t when they’ve fallen down the rabbit hole and felt a heartbreak or three. Boys didn’t break my heart you know, I did. I break it all the time. I’m breaking it right now and I don’t even know why."

what is the point in making a decision or even saying it outloud well knowing that it wont change anything. RIDDLE ME THIS. why am i investing time with someone who wont invest any time with me?! RIDDLE. ME. THAT.

combat baby take deux.

this time tomorrow i have every intention of erasing all the bad choices i made the last couple of months. it starts with cutting the clutter.

i really dont like crying at random hours of the day. maybe its that time of the month. no wait. ive been doing for months now. hate how people have a crazy affect on me. i get knocked on it often: i care too much. which i thought was an admirable quality. and it is. but not when it burns a hole so deep that i can almost feel my bones crack. vivid. woah.

the way i see it #5849 i will always care about a person no matter how much theyve hurt me or how many times theyve made me cry.. with the exception of one person. said person can go to hell and take his ugly nammer gf with him. jerk =)